God please help me!

God please help me to enjoy what I have instead of being bitter that I do not have something! Please help me heal my anger, please take it away, give me peace. Please give me peace about living here until it is my time to leave.
Thank you.

day 15

I am my own supply,I can manifest anything I want, without limitation. I am grateful today that I have so much energy. I am grateful that I can function today, that I have so much energy. I am so grateful
I am grateful that I have an appointment with a specialist today.I know he is going to help me.I am grateful that I am in touch with the source of love inside me. I am full of love and gratitude!

day 14

I am my supply. I supply anything I need; therefore it is not possible for me to have needs or unmet desires.
I am so grateful today. I had a great day. We solved an important problem we had in April, and now we can relax in April. I am grateful because I have 4 participants for my course, another one just emailed me today, I know her, she is so nice. I am so happy that these people are coming and I can help them. I am so grateful. Gratitude fills my heart. Really, truly. Thank you.

I am grateful that my appointment with the doctor is tomorrow. I know that I will be helped and I am truly grateful for this. Thank you.

day 13

My consciousness is filled with the light of truth that I am a master manifester and can manifest any reality I want.
I am very grateful for today. I had a fantastic day together with H. Today (actually yesterday) we had an honest conversation about our future and I told him that he needs to think about what he wants. If he can accept my flaws, and make our relationship more committed and if he cant do that, he needs to let me go.He said that he needs time to think about that. I am so grateful that this is out in the open now and that I said what i wanted.
I am also very grateful because my ad at the bookstore is posted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So there is now a link with info about me, my services and my website and also the date, 14 March when i am giving readings. Whooo - hoooo. I am so grateful and happy about that.
I am also very grateful that my website is almost complete and I found the text color for the website and it is gray, like the color of angel feathers. I am so greateful, so excited!!!!!!!! It is starting for me, I am so grateful.
My client is going to call me this Thursday, I am so grateful for this. Thank you! Thank you!!!

day 12

I am the master manifester. I am filled with love for everything in the universe, divine love is filling up my heart. All I need to do is to focus on this love and the source of the love, and things will come to me themselves. They will come to me easily and effortlessly.

I am grateful for today because I got 9 hours of sleep at night. I am grateful because I have been enjoying him so much today and yesterday. I am grateful because I am going to my mother in law's where I can paint my angels. I am grateful it is finally a weekend and I can enjoy myself. Thank you.
I am also grateful that I found out about this theater workshop that I will attend in 2 weeks, I want to be in a play, so will manifest that. So grateful for today, for being in the now, for feeling gratitude and love in my heart.

day 11

I am God, I am creator, and I am very very grateful and full of love. I am very grateful for the day I had today. Iam grateful that my job gives me such flexibility that I can work from home. I am grateful that I slept 8 hours today and slept 1 hour in the afternoon.
I am very grateful for the delicious soup I had today. I am very grateful that H is coming and I am picking him up. I am grateful that his mom is going to cook special meal for me.
I am grateful that I have this life. I am grateful that I was so eficient today and shopped, bought what I needed to buy and now can rest and then drive to the airport. I am grateful for the information that came through today. Thank you, thank you! I am grateful that my angel practice is taking off. Thank you.

I am grateful that my heart is filled with love, love for myself and for my clients and for the world.

Day 10

I keep the faith, I trust that I am the master manifester and create my own universe and my own reality.
I trust that God is taking care of me in the best possible way, arranging things for my highest good. I trust that my intuition is leading me to where I was meant to go.

I am very very grateful that my heart is open. I feel love, so much love. I have so much love to the woman who contacted me today: I feel so much compassion, I want to help her, guide her, as she feels stuck, I want to guide her so that she could see the sun, feel hopeful and happy again. I am grateful that I had a good meeting with my colleague and my boss, we discuss that I will off load the projects I do not like and get the project that I want. I am grateful that I left work early today and grateful I had enough energy to do yoga. I am grateful that even though this was the first time in almost 2 months that I did yoga, my body was still flexible and remembered things quickly. I am grateful that I was calm and collected after my yoga class. I am grateful that the woman emailed me back and now we can make an appointment. I am grateful tomorrow is friday and then it is the weekend again. Whoo hoo!!

Reading for myself 20.1.09

I asked how my workshop in March will go and got three cards.
1. Golden opportunity - your prayers have been answered.
"it will go well. Things are happening NOW. The time is now. You are ready. It will go well. You will make an impression. They will want more, more and more. It wil pick up like fire, angel circles everywhere. You will have followers, many followers, here, in this country and in Russia. (? not 100 % sure about Russia).
It will be a success.

2. Trust your intuition - listen to your inner wisdon and trust its validity.
I had a feeling I need to use a candle and manifestation technique at my workshop.
"Trust your intuition completely. It is leading you to the right place where your heart's desires will be manifested. Do not hold back your desires, manifest them, anything is possible.
Your child is coming to you, out of the blue, when you least expect it. Let go of the old, of the now, of your old life and it will come to you. You will recover. The hair will grow back. The memory will return completely. Trust in your intuition, keep your heart open.

3. Gratitude - Focus on what is positive in your life and you will attract more positive situations.
"Focus on positive things and more things are coming to you - more students who are interested in my teachings. You will have many followers. Focus on the positives. Be grateful, be happy. The happier you are, the more positives you will attract. Go on the radio" - and got the name of the radiostation I need to be on.

Thank you, angels, so much for this. I am so grateful to you, for your presence in my life.

day 9

I am totally fulfilled because I manifest anything I want. I effortlessly, easily and continuously manifest the reality I want for myself, manifest what my heart desires.
All I need to do is manifest, focus on waht I want, then relax and TRUST.
I am very grateful today. I had a fantastic day. I had a very productive day. I accomplished so much. I am very grateful that I had a lot of energy, so much that I exercized for 40 minutes. I am also grateful because I left my card somewhere else and they let me into the gym without it.
I am also very grateful because my meeting on 3 February is all set, and things are in perfectly divine order for that meeting. I am also grateful because my workshop is all set and my friend is going to get me participants. She said all i need to do is relax and bring myself and my angels and she and her friend will bring participants.

I am also grateful that my event at the bookstore is all set too, on 14. March. I got a message that there will be many people, waiting in line to get a reading from me. I am extremely grateful that things are now picking up and the timing is perfect for this and I feel so much love towards these people. I love them so much, I want to help them so much.

I am also extremely grateful that today I got an email with a request for a phone reading. Isnt this amazing?? I am so grateful for this. So very grateful. Thank you. Thank you. I am so grateful.
I am also grateful that I got this appointment with a specialist so soon, next week. So grateful for that.

I am also grateful to my teacher, S. I got a message that the reason why I need to take her channeling class is to learn to be happy. And it is true. My guide is teaching me to be happy, he is leading me towards happiness.

One does not need to be healthy and does not need to have a child, a family or money to be happy. This is such a simple truth, I wish I knew it before, but I am so grateful that I know this now.

Day 8

My consciousness of the spirit of God within me is my unlimited source of all. That means I can manifest any reality I want, including the best reality, including my heart's desires. I can manifest those easily and effortlessly, as long as I believe, am aware, and am not afraid to receive.All I need to do is be aware and believe and I shall receive anything i want.

I am so grateful for today. I had a fantastic day again. I finalized the agenda for my meeting in 2 weeks, all the guests are coming, then I meet a friend for coffee/desert and we had a fantastic time together. I am grateful for having a lot of energy to do this, and grateful that people are very interested in what I am doing with regard to my spiritual stuff. I am grateful that I had a lot of energy today and was in a good mood, especially after lunch. I am so grateful.

I was so grateful that I was able to help H with his resume and that he was grateful for my help.I am grateful that I was able to sleep today until 8:30 and showed up for work at 10:30. I am grateful t hat m y schedule is so flexible allowing me to do what I want.

I am grateful that I was informed about a meeting taking place in Russia, so I can learn more about what happens there. I had a very nice desert today, a suffle, I am grateful that I was able to enjoy every bite (I am glad it was small though :))

I am love, love, pure love. My heart is filled with love and I am very grateful that I am so in touch with it and that my heart is so open and receiving.

I got some good news from my friend, the summer Butterfly and I am so grateful for her presence in my life. So grateful!

day 7

I am confident in letting go and trying to control things. I am confident that I can TRUST. Trust in God that he is arranging things for me for my best good and TRUST my intuition or my inner guidance that it is guiding me in the right direction. I trust my guidance, I trust what I feel, see, know and hear.

I trust that only everything good will happen to me, that I will be guided to the best possible solution for me, always. I am very grateful for that, very very grateful. My heart is filled with gratitude.

Day 6

All my needs and desires are constantly fulfilled, they are always meet. Everything I want is always given to me because I am a master manifester and I show this principle of manifestation in action.
I am very grateful today as I had a fantastic day. I talked to these wonderful people who missed me very much. I had a nice day at the gym, had enough energy to swim, had enough energy to exercise. I had a nice day interacting with my classmates. I really enjoyed being in the pool today as I manifested that I will be completely alone there. Feeling this water washing me off and carrying me was an experience I am really grateful for.
Yesterday I was so grateful that I went to this klezmer concert, Klezmerfobia. The singer was fantastic, as well as the band. It was an unforgettable experience. While they played I thought about my grandparents speaking Yiddish in my childhood home, how much I miss them, in particular, my grandmother. I thought about this song that we used to play at home, Yiddische liddle. I liked it so much. Then she sang Yiddishe mame, and the tears started pouring from my cheeks. I was so touched. It was something that was coming from one Jewish soul to another, very special. Then they started playing other songs and my feet started moving by themselves. I spent 2 hours dancing and jumping and I was ohh - so very happy. I kept thinking how grateful I was for this experience, it was truly moving and unforgettable at the same time.

I am very grateful that I went to this concert.
Today I had this fantastic pumpkin soup for lunch, I was so grateful that I enjoyed it so much, I also enjoyed the bread very much. Tomorrow I look forward to eat the chicken I cooked for myself.

My gratitude is filling my heart, love is filling my heart. I have such a great life, such a fantastic life!

DAY 5

I am my own supply. Since my consciousness of this is unlimited, my supply is also unlimited. I manifest my own reality in whatever way I want to create it. This means that I am a creator of my own life and reality.
My gratitude is unlimited today as I had a fantastic day, was able to exercise and swim for 40 minutes. I am extremely grateful that I had so much energy today. On the way back from the gym, I listed to jazz tunes and decided to check out what is playing at the jazzhouse today and was suprized to see that it was a Klezmer band. I sent my mom to see you and i guess i manifested that I can see one too. Here it is a rarity, or so I thought.
I am extremely grateful for this, and look forward to the concert.
Additionally, a letter came from the hospital showing that there is a problem with my pancreas. I am so grateful for this as I am getting closer to being cured. I was told that I will be cured in the spring, after a surgery. I am extremely grateful that I am being lead to perfect health.
In addition, I did not feel like going to my healing class today and I am grateful to myself that I did not go. I am grateful that I did not push myself. Today it was a nice day. I am grateful that the sun was shining. I am grateful that H stayed home and I could relax although I did miss him.
I am grateful that I made my mother happy as she really enjoyed the klezmer concert I sent her to.

I am grateful that they let me know a reading all day on 7 March at the bookstore. So grateful. Happiness is filling my heart that I can proceed with my mission. I got this information that I should be on the radio here, and need to find a radio station that I can go to. I am so grateful for my connection with the divine. I am grateful that I am now so courageous that I listen to my intuition without questioning and trust in the information I receive. I am very grateful

little news

forgot if I posted this, but third week of Feb is my workshop. Still waiting for dates confirmation but it is a done deal pretty much. Then, I am going to sign up for a reading day at the metaphysical bookstore on 7 March. Yahooo!!!!!!!!!

Then I did say to H that his boss, End. guy will be impressed. H ran into him on Friday and impressed him. My information was that he will get promoted again, let's see.

day 4

I am Christ himself. I am connected to him, to the Divine, as my soul is divine. This soul has unlimited powers and can create anything it wants.

Now I am focusing on gratitude and love and manifesting a lot of gratitude and love in my life. I am grateful for a fantastic day yesterday, where I was filled with very good ideas. I am grateful for having a lot of energy yesterday and being able to go to the gym. I am grateful for being able to swim and enjoying every minute of being in the water. I am grateful for being guided to the water by 2 clairvoyants and of course my mother.
I am happy and grateful is going well, that I am able to stay and home to day and work from home. I am grateful for all the riches I have in my life. I have enough money until the end of the month, very grateful for that. Iam grateful for having a roof over my head. I am grateful for being able to afford nice things. I am grateful for having friends who are helping me. I am grateful to have H's mother who is also helping me.I have got so much help from her. I am very grateful that I have this chance to do this workshop, so very grateful! I am grateful for being able to feel love in my heart and for being connected to my feelings.

I am full of love, my heart is full of love, I feel this love and my clients feel it too.I am loving, I am love itself. I am mother love. I have felt this motherly love inside my chest to my clients who will take my workshop. I am giving them motherly love, the love from the divine that is pouring out of my heart.

Day 3

All I need to be is conscious of the truth that i am divine, that I am a master manifester and it is the truth. I am divine, I am a master manifester creating her own fantastic reality, creating her own dream life. I am so grateful as my life is a dream. It is as good as it gets.
I have a very good day today ahead of me, I have a lot of energy, going to swim later, meeting with a friend. I manifested a swimming companion for myself, not one, but two. My friend and her little son. I am very grateful. I have enough money until the end of the month which is what I have manifested. I am very grateful for this. I have manifested that I will make a perfect invitation to my workshop and I did. I manifested that I am taking care of my mother, and I did. I called her about this Yiddish song concert that is taking place near her home. She was so happy. I am so grateful that I have this opportunity to give to her, instead of just receiving.
I am so grateful for H as he is arranging this trip for us to Switzerland. He is taking care of all the details. I am very grateful. My heart is filled with gratitude.
I am grateful that I came up with this idea to invite supply people to the meeting. So grateful that my brain is working better now. Gratitude is really filling me for everything that is going well in my life.

All I have inside me is love and gratitude. Love, love, pure love.

day 2 of PP

I am divine, I am aware of the truth that the purpose of my soul is to know that I am the source and substance of all. That means that I can manifest anything I want, any reality I want, easily and effortlessly.

I chose to manifest gratitude in my life, gratitude for all I have. I have so much. Yesterday I had a fantastic day. I am grateful for that. I am going to BUdapest, bought a ticket to see Evgeni Onegin, I am very grateful for that and very very excited. My job is interesting, they pay me well, my colleague is good, I am grateful for that. I am very grateful.
I am grateful that I have an opportunity to travel and see the world. I am grateful for being able to channel well. I am very grateful that JJ is helping me organize a public angel reading. She seems very excited to help me and I am too and very grateful. I am very grateful that my mother is self-sufficient and healthy, so grateful. I am so grateful that it is such a pleasure for me to talk to her. She is so delightful.
I am very grateful that I am so in touch with my emotions and feeling, so grateful that my heart is filled with love for all. I am love.

Day 1 of prosperity plan

I am God, I am part of the divine, the god inside me is my reality. This god within me is all providing which means that I can manifest any reality I choose. I manifest easily and effortlessly because I am part of the divine.

I manifest gratitude in my life, I am grateful for living here as it lead me to be spiritual, to connect with the divine, to give depth and meaning to my life, to take away the struggles. I am very grateful. My gratitude is huge because I have an interesting job, great boss, nice people around me who take care of me, a lot of clients who love to come to me and because I have so much love. I am totally totally connected to the source of love within me. My heart is very open and has a lot of love inside. I am very grateful for this. Thank you.

new start of prosperity plan

I will do prosperity plan for 40 days again, starting with day one, and will start tomorrow.

reading for H yesterday

I did a reading for H yesterday. I realized that he is not the right client for me and that I should not do readings for him any more.
I need to save my energy for real clients. However, he is upset that he now has to share his office with 2 older women -dragons. And I told him that one of them will be sick. Today he emailed me that one of them is sick.

A couple of other things:
he will get promoted
He will stay at this job at least for 3-6 months longer
What I see is that one of his bosses either B or the other one E, will be impressed.
I told him that he needs to contact some people in Brussels to start off his new activities and he did told me that he thought about contacting some investment guys in Brussels to help him with how he should proceed.

He has a meeting with a guy from Luxemburg who is also doing smth similar to what H is doing, but for the whole company. And I said to him, be careful how much of this you take in.
I told him to get closer to E, and that this job is a temporary one. He will be gone. He will start the process but i was not sure he would be there to finish it. I said that he needs to use this job for networking only, only for his purpose. Perhaps this networking will help him get a new job.

The rest I cant remember what I said.

day 60

Guilty, I missed 2 days of blogging with this.

I keep my mind and thoughts off this world, and I place my entire focus on God within as the only cause of my prosperity i acknowledge the inner presence as the only activity in my financial activities, as the substance of all things visible. I place my faith in the principle of abundance in action within me now.

All I need to do is believe and trust and manifest. I need to believe that I am part of the divine, with powers to manifest the outcomes I desire without a doubt. If I want to have abundance or love or a child or my hair growing, all I need to do is manifest.
All I need to do right now is to fill my heart with gratitude and love. Gratitude for the riches and good life and good health that I have today. I am so grateful that I had a very nice day today, that I am becoming more productive, that I enjoyed my swimming session today. I am grateful that I have a wonderful boss and great colleagues. Very grateful that I am able to enjoy life and travelling so much. It is exciting and I am very grateful for my life.

I am also full of love -for my clients, for H, for my mom, and most importantly, for myself.

day 59

When I am aware of the God's self within me as my total fulfilment, then I am totally fulfilled. I am now aware of this truth. I now found the secret of life and I relax in the knowledge that the activity of divine abundance is eternally operating in my life. I simply have to be aware of the flow, this radiation of creative energy which is continuously, easily and effortlessly pouring forth from my divine consciousness. I am now aware, I am now in the flow.

All I need to do is be aware that I am a master manifester that can easily, effortlessly and continuously create my own reality. I am a creator since I create my own reality every moment of my life. Therefore, I am consiously focusing on the positive outcomes that I want to create in my life - happiness and love. Yes, I am very happy today and am eternally grateful because my life cannot be any better than it is right now. Things are happening for me. I am in the flow now, all I need to do is follow my intuition and I will arrive to the destination I choose.

My heart is filled with love and gratitude. Yes, I am eternally grateful for what I have in my life today - H, my mother, my friends who are helping me and support me every step of the way and my job that is pretty interesting and will lead me to Russia which is where my destiny lies. I am grateful that I am able to be a good channel for my clients and channel information to them and love. I am grateful that my heart is open for them and radiates love. I am grateful that they feel this love and send it back to me, so that there is a flow. I am in the flow now and I am very grateful for this.

day 58 of prosperity plan

My consiousness of the spirit of God within me as my unlimited source is the divine power to restore the years..(cant understand), to make all thigs new, to let me up to the high road of abundant prosperity. This awareness, understanding, and knowledge of spirit appears as every visible form and experience that I could possibly desire.

All I need to do is to be counscious of the divine love, inside of me, outside of me, everywhere, and things will flow. All I need to do is to focus on that love, coming from my heart chakra to the universe, sending love to every single being and creature. There is nothing more, but love, unconditional love, love everywhere. I love everyone, I am grateful for everything. Everything. everything in my life has been a lesson that I am eternally grateful for. Most of all, I am grateful for my intuition (or the voices of my angels) that is continuingly guiding me where I need to go. I am grateful for my ability and courage to listen to that voice. Thank YOU.

new test results

Ok, got new test results the ones I did in the states. I knew it that if I lived in the states, they would have discovered the problem already.
My total iron is too high, % transferrin saturation is too high and another parameter is too low. Also the RDW is decreased as well. Ferritin is normal however.
Maybe it is iron overload -hemochromatosis. At least it gives me something I can go back to my doctor with and demand more investigations. Something IS happening, it is not what they told me "lack of balance". I am sure it is some kind of very rare problems which these people here are not so good at figuring out but with my intuition, I will help them and myself.
Some of the symptoms are there: hair loss, bronzing of the skin, etc.

I jusst did a kinesiology on this and it does seem to be iron overload although not chemochromatosis and it looks like the treatment for me will not be blod letting; instead, they will find a reason for this abnormality.

day 57

The divine consciousness that I am is forever expressing its true nature of abundance. This is its responsibility, not mine. My only responsibility is to be aware of this truth; therefore, I am totally confident in letting go and letting God appear as an abundance all-sufficiency in my life and affairs.

My only responsibility is to manifest and trust. Trust in God or the Universe fully. Trust that it will not let me down. Trust that it knows what is best for me much better than I do myself. My responsibility is to accept or ask for help in accepting things that I cannot change. My responsibility is to manifest, manifest the outcomes I want and desire. I am a master-manifester and am totally confident that I can manifest things I desire easily and effortlessly.

I am totally filled with gratitude. I am so grateful for what i have NOW, at this very moment. I am grateful for my clients who cannot wait to see me, very grateful for my husband and two beautiful children, very grateful for friends who are helping me make my angel practice a reality. THANK YOU. I am also grateful for my move to Russia which has helped me find my destiny. Thank you.

Go for it

This morning I asked if I should take JJ's offer to find some people for public readings and got "go for it". So I told her I want to do it, praying for calmness inside. Waiting to hear back.

Now, emailed the store, they do not let people do events, but will get back to me next week. I missed that they only have clairvoyants sitting there with whom you need to sign up for a clairvoyant session.

If they say no to my public angel readings, I want to do this too. Perhaps I should ask them already, but Shishka now says that I need to wait until next week.

space for angel readings

I think I have space for angel readings. I got a message that I need to email my friend, JJ to ask her about the space and she offered to use a space of one of the friends.

I guess this is my way in. I got a message the door is open and I need to take this first step which is to say yes to the offer and arrange it.

day 56

my inner supply instantly and constantly takes on form and experience according to my needs and desires.
Therefore as the principle of supply in action, it is impossible for me to have any needs or unfulfilled desires.

I am a master manifester with unlimited ability to manifest what I want according to my needs and desires. It is not possible for me to have any unfulfilled needs as I always can manifest what I want and need easily and effortlessly.

I have a lot of love that I am ready to share with the world. This love is coming from my heart and permeates my whole being. I love myself so very much. I am the apple of my eye. I feel this love coming from my heart and returning back to my heart, enveloping my whole body, my whole being. I love myself so much! I love life, I am so grateful for my life.
All I want to cultivate is a feeling of grattitude for what I have. I am so grateful that I have these people in my life. I am so grateful for having H in my life, I am so grateful for living here, as I was taught so many important lessons. I am filled with gratitude and filled with love.

I love so many people. I love my clients, I love them with my whole heart. I am grateful for being a channel of divine love from the universe to them, from me to them. I am grateful for being able to channel love, love in its purest form. My clients love me, I feel how happy they are and how loved they feel when they come to see me.

I am grateful for the angel messages I deliver as all of them are very loving messages. I am grateful for having angels in my life, so grateful.

angel reading for myself

I did some angel readings for myself and some clairvoyance.

Asked a question about my health. Received these cards:
1. Success - a favorable outcome is assured.
Received this message that went with the card. "You will be cured, my child. In the spring, you will be alright.

Ready to move on with your life. The road is wide open for you, the road leading to Russia. The dooor is about to open. You'll move to Russia in the spring/early summer. Take nothing with you, travel light. All you need to bring is yourself and your big heart. Shishka (my guide) will be right by your side, seeing what a human eye cant see, hearing what a human ear cant hear. he will be your eyes, your ears and will help you navigate through. DO not be afriaid of anything, he will be there with you. All you need to do is to let go of your life here, for you won't be coming back. You will not be returning.

You will be cured in the spring. You will recover fully after a surgery. Perfectly healthy. The hair will start growing again and will be full and beautiful, better than before.

2. Romance angels. The angels are sending you divine light.
"You are so loved, my child, you have an army of angels by your side, romance angels, who oversee your personal happiness.All you need to do is let go of the present, and a new man will enter your life. He will enter yourlife in the spring. Do not say yes immediately, wait it out. It will turn out very well for you.
THe man is your child's father. Older man. A foreigner. Watch for the signs from us, for we
l direct you to him when the time is right. Your husband is waiting for you. He is not ready yet, but will be prepared for you when the time is right.
You will have a child together, the love of your life whom you will love more than anything in the whole wide world. Your child will come to you, will find you. We (romance angels) are working hard on your behalf.

3. Golden opportunity. You prayers have been answered.
The road to Russia is wide open, go there and you will find personal happiness and success.

Other things - interest on Bg loan - "Fix the interest NOW before it gets too high. Call your bank and arrange the deal. Call (X) bank to get a 2nd opinion.

Need to wait with paying out one of the loans.

When I move, need to hire a moving company, cant handle it alone. Get a few bids for this.

Go to the bookstore, make a deal with them for public readings. Gave me another website where I can check out spaces for my readings. Need to hurry to make flyers.

Will need to move during the first week of April, after that will travel to the states for a well deserved break.

In May you will begin your new job in Russia.

Back to the Prosperity plan, day 5 (Day 55)

Money is not my supply, no person, place or condition is my supply. My awareness, understanding and knowledge of the all providing activity of the divine mind within me is my supply. My consciousness of this truth is unlimited; therefore, my supply is unlimited.

Money is not my supply. I am my supply. I can manifest abundance and prosperity as I have them within myself and can manifest them readily and easily, so I can live in prosperity and abundance.

The love within me is my supply. The love within me is abundant. My heart is so full of love, it is so wide open, the love spills over to me and to others. I am so loved, I am filled with love for myself, with all my imperfections. Yes, i am physically an imperfect being, but inside I am so perfect, so loved and have so much love, ready to share it, ready to heal myself and the world. I love myself so much, I am filled with love, even if I am bold, I love myself even more because of that, I love my falling out hair so much, I love my scalp that is losing hair. LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WOLD. Sending you pink light of love.

I have so much love to others, the clients can feel it and they are coming to me in great numbers. They want my love and I am so happy and grateful that I can share my love with them as it is abundant and in unlimited supply.

Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, a little more, and a new year's resolution

Happy new year, everyone. May it bring you everything your heart and souls desire, no less.

I have been a slacker about updating this blog, partly due to my ill health. However, now I already figured out one of the reason for being sick - it is due to the perpetual darkness here. After 2 weeks in the states- Hawaii and California, my symptoms - hair loss and sleep disturbance have diminished significantly, but now I am back "home" and the sleep is back to zero and hair loss has increased.

It hit me that it is due to the darkness - it is dark outside and inside ALL THE TIME. So now using a bright lamp and changed my light bulbs from energy saving to regular 60 W and voila! my sleep has returned overnight. Now need to figure out what is going to with the hair and itching on my back.

I realized that his place is bad for me and it is making me sick. Therefore, today I make my new year's resolution - today, I, (my name), promise that this year 2009 will be my last year in this dark kingdom. I hope that my stint with Russia goes thru in May or summer and after 6 months in Russia, I promise to myself that I will not return.

I will also try to limit my time here from now on as much as possible, taking a trip to the states (if I change a job at my current company) and working from "home" in Germany where H lives. It is much sunnier there than it is here.

So here it is.

More news - tomorrow having an MRI of my gastrointestinal (GI) tract. Saw a vision of my doctor, looking at the image of the MRI, pointing to a dark spot on the image, saying "here it is!". (I am trying to find a physical problem for my poor health, and think that GI may be it). Already found out that I was lactose intolerant as I suspected, now I want to test for fructose and sugar allergy. Have a friend who after fertility treatments became allergic or intolerant to fructose, want to see if the same thing happened to poor little me.

Another news - I want to start giving public angel readings, so I am going to this metaphysical store asking them to use their space. I also want to make flyers.

I also realized that there will be no DE for me until I leave this kingdom and get well, so my little baby needs to wait until the Russian stint is over until I am outta here. in the meantime, i committ to making myself happy, regardless of other things.