Strange

It was very odd how the feeling that I had to let him go was very strong. And it was strong that it has to happen NOW or as soon as possible.
He came yesterday to get some stuff. It was so sad to see him. He is in pain and told me he feels said and he feels like he doesn't have a home any more. I cried. I also feel that I cannot be there to comfort him. Can't do it! It hurts me greatly.
He is back in July to get more stuff.
I do feel that I need to have a consultation with a real lawyer to discuss what to do and if I am being treated fairly.

I let H go

It is over, I let H go, I am so sad! At the same time I am so grateful that I spent almost 9 years with this wonderful person. I only want to keep the lessons and the love, and let the rest go.
It was very odd how it happened but it was maturing inside me for quite some time, so I was ready. He was shocked! I feel so sad for him because he is so sad! I wish I could comfort him, hold him and kiss him!
I keep getting that a child is coming but what child, what about the man?