Day 38

Prosperity is within me. Prosperity is love. Divine love, manifestations of unconditional love is prosperity. I am the source of prosperity. I am the source of unconditional love. The clients are coming to me in great numbers. They want me to give love and they want to give to me. It is a fair exchange. I give love, and they give in exchange. They love giving to me as the love they receive from me is priceless to them.

day 37

I only need to be aware of this simple truth, and everything will come to me - clients, promotion and anything I want. There is no such thing as not being able to receive. All will be given to me. I have this source of love inside that I can give to my clients, I have this source of confidence and power that will come through at my new job. Because i am a self-sufficient spirit, manifesting everything into reality, anything will succeed in my life. I can do all, I can solve all, I can do all.

day 36

All my needs/desires are fulfilled.I am filled with love and give to my clients and teach them how to love, teach them that love is the answer. I teach them that abundance is a state of mind, teach them that they have perfect bodies, perfect minds and that they are perfect beings and that they are very very loved.

day 35

Wow, things are getting better and better. My supply of abundance and love is unlimited. I am filled with unconditional love to myself and others. I love my clients unconditionally. I love them as I love myself, unconditionally. This love towards me and my clients fills up my heart, and starts overflowing from my heart chakra to the universe. My clients are sensing my unlimited love for them and they are coming forward allowing me to give love to them and realizing my mission. They are coming in great numbers, and I can give to all of them as my supply of love is, truly unlimited as I am the source of love. I AM LOVE. I emanate it with every cell of my being. I am beaming love into the universe, to heal the sick and to help the sufferers. Every cell of my being is illuminated with the light of love shining beautifully, like a beautiful star. With my love coming through me, I am in the flow. I give to my clients with love,and I receive. Love is abundance, love is prosperity. I am rich in love, I am rich in abundance.

job offer

I received a job offer today from another company here and the money is looking very good. However I need to find out if I am able to take time off when I need to.
I also turned down the job in Germany today but need to write them a nice letter.

Day 34

I am a spirit; I am my own supply. My supply is unlimited. I have supply and I have a lot of energy and love and I am ready to share that with others.They are waiting for me, and I am moving towards them. To help them is my mission, and I am moving towards fulfilling my mission.

Day 33

I am conscious of infinite prosperity; I am concsious of the truth. I am conscious that I need to follow my passion and my mission, and good things will come to me. My clients are waiting, I am passionate about helping them. I want to take them under my wings. I feel them, see them, know them and moving towards them.

day 32

My soul is the mastermind, its purpose (my purpose) is to create happiness and prosperity for me and around me. They are waiting for me to make them happy, to take away their pain, to show them the way. I feel them in my heart, see them in my mind's eye, and moving towards them.

day 31

God is all. I am God. God is my divine consciousness. God is all powerful; therefore I am all powerful. Jeg kan alt.

A reward for day 20

And I did schedule a reward for myself. I am getting a MANICURE next Friday.

promotion, part dieux

Ok, he said no about the promotion. I feel that I have handled this issue so well. I felt so entitled and so confident inside!
However to be so at peace I really need to do youga 3 times a week because of this job. So it gotta go. On another hand, I got this job offer from another company.

day 30, 10 more days to go

The spirit inside me is the source of all. the limitless source of abundance is inside me.

promotion

Today I am going to walk into my boss' office and demanding a promotion. I feel I deserve it. I also feel that I need to tell him that I qualify for this, I have enough points to get it, and if I do not get it here, while I prefer to stay at my current job, I will EASILY and EFFORTLESSLY get it an another organization.

I CAN nail it!

dancing with the stars

I think I knew that Jenny Garth will be eliminated in this round. I believe Marie Osmond will be eliminated next. Let's see if it happens or not.

I just read what I wrote a week ago and it is not true. I thought Marie Osmond would be eliminated and it actually was Jenny Garth.

day 29

I am thinking of doing this program for 50 (not 40) days.

I am aware of God's mind inside me and it makes me fulfilled. When I am aware, I am in the flow. When I am aware of this truth that I have the source of abundance and limitless fulfillment inside me, all good things will come to me and I am fulfilled. When I am aware, I can manifest anything I want, need and desire.

Day 28

My awareness of the divine spirit inside me is the only thing that will lead me to the infinite prosperity. It is my spirit that is rich in manifestation and abundance that can provide anything I need and want.

Day 27

My only responsibility is to be aware of the truth that inside me I have a limitless source of abundance which is my spirit. My spirit will provide for me regardless of what I need. All my needs will be fulfilled.

Talking to my friend the Butterfly

When I spoke to my butterfly friend, she suggested a few things about my course. Well, what I can do it take out their body parts and see what is happening to their hearts, etc which is my specialty. They could also paint their body parts with pencils.

But we did some clairvoyant thing on the upcoming workshop that we are both taking. So this is what I saw: I saw that the auditorium where we would take the course will be huge and shaped like rainbow - each row will be shaped like a rainbow rather than be a straight line like you would see in a normal classroom.
Then my friend wants to get into the next course that starts after we finish our course but she cannot because she is not eligible before she finishes this course. I saw her run into the teacher in the toilet. I can see her standing with her back to the door, facing the teacher. The toilet is empty, there is no one there and I can see that the counters where the sinks are are grayish white and look like they are made of marble. the teacher is facing the door. My friend saw EXACTLY the same picture, also with gray counters and with the teacher facing the door. I see my friend with her left side to the mirrors and the teacher with the right side to the mirrors but my friend saw herself with her right side to the mirrors and the teacher with her left side to the mirrors.

I saw that the teacher is wearing a dress, below the knee, with purplish blue flowers, it is somewhat transparent or semi-transparent. I can see that there is something green in her clothes but cannot see what it is. I can also see that she has this small cream colored purse. This is what I told my friend, but a moment ago I saw that she has a similar color shoes with short hills-4.5 to 5 cm and cream color pantyhose. Oh I cannot believe this myself but I am writing this down to see if I am write about this so that I could confirm.

I also saw my friend in the course that she wants to take, with her sitting in the first or second raw, in a small auditorium and I can feel our teacher's presence there.

Also my friend believes that she and a teacher had a contract of some kind in their past life. Immediately when she said that, I saw a picture of my friend sitting with with a large piece of paper, reading something and having a pen in her hand, as if she is getting ready to sign something, and I feel our teacher sitting across from my friend.

OK, now I focused on the teacher's husband and could feel that he is divorced and I think he had two wives before he married the teacher. I believe he was married twice before. I believe he has 3 children. I want to confirm this somehow. He also has a dog or I see him at the beach with a dog who is this reddish/sand color dog with long fur - golden retriever.

day 26

All my desires and needs are fulfilled and are being fulfilled because the supply is inside of me and is unlimited. It can fulfill ALL my needs and desires. As soon as I make a choice which way I want to go and what I want in my life, I should just watch and see how things are being manifested into my life like a storm.

Day 25, 15 more days to go

My supply is unlimited. My supply is awareness of the all providing divine mind inside me. My knowledge about this truth is unlimited; therefore my supply is unlimited. I have my own source inside me, this source is all providing, whatever my needs and desires are, it will provide, all I need is to be aware of this truth.

Iceland

I ran into this trip to Iceland with my teacher from the school. The reason why I was taken by this idea is because I saw the mountain in my vision that I was flying towards with my butterfly friend. I saw this mountain on a picture of this brochure from the trip. The trip is in May. I also got a message that I need to let the Butterfly know about this so I did.

On another note, I was watching S. give initiations in Reiki I to students and I saw a HUGE angel in the corner that was moving as S. was moving. It was a HUGE white male angel. The amount of energy in that room was enormous.

I also practiced Reiki I initiation with this girl, Anne, she was very powerful. I could clearly feel that there was a plate in my back when she drew a Raku sign on my back. When she opened my crown chakra I felt? or saw? that my head was sliced in two. When she held my heart chakra, I felt that I was a bird and she held me in her hands with lots of love and care. That was so nice. i was touched and had tears in my eyes.

When I initiated her, I could clearly feel the energy going from my fingers into her hands and into her crown chakra. In fact, she was completely covered in this reiki colored goo.

Day 24

My supply and my source is within me. My supply is my soul, the divine mind inside me that is connected to the Divine. All that I need is inside of me. All I need to do is to be aware of this truth. No need to do anything else.

Day 23

The only truth is that the divine presence is inside me and that presence has unlimited abundance and can manifest all. I am the true source of infinite prosperity. when I am conscious that I am the source of prosperity/abundance, I become prosperity and abundance.

Dancing with the stars

I am making a prediction about dancing with the stars -the next one to go home is Mari Osmond. There will be Jenny Garth or the Spice Girl left. I feel that Melanie Brown is more likely to win.

Let's see.

Reading my old entries from this blog

Yesterday I read my old entries from this blog when I started it. I cannot believe how much I have changed! Before I needed reassurance that i am not crazy with all these visions, before I did not BELIEVE, but now I do. I am a completely new person. I made so much progress.

I can also see that some of the predictions I have made did not come true. For example, how long things will take. But most of them did come true. It happened exactly how the voice inside me said it would be. Amazing. It is a proof!

Day 22

My souls is a mastermind. It is connected to the Divine and can manifest everything I desire, as long as I am aware of this truth. My soul can give me all. All I need and want is within me, waiting to come forth. All I need is to be aware that my soul=divine mind is the substance and the source.

From day 2: the purpose of my soul is to manifest all good that is inside of me into all good that is outside of me. From day 12: my soul is the source of infinite prosperity.

This is getting a bit repetitive. I still need to do it for 18 more days. However i can clearly see the progress

baby, uterus and fair

During my morning meditation, I saw my uterus and healed it from that tissue. Then I saw a fetus inside that started growing. Then I saw a blond baby boy playing inside my uterus. I also had a dream today where I bought a baby in a supermarket and was nursing it.

Then I was meditating on different faires and saw myself at a fair in Hamburg in the spring. I also saw myself in my friend Butterfly's home giving a workshop with her. I saw saw how useful the hypnosis education would be for me. I can definitely use it.

Day 21

God is within me. I am God. God is all powerful and since it is within me, I am all powerful and all providing source of ALL. God within me can do all and can make anything happen, and it is super powerful and super strong. The source within is unlimited. I tap into my own infinite source to create reality I desire and prosperity.

radical forgiveness program

I did the first part of the radical forgiveness program - it is so powerful to write down everything you feel guilty about - I feel sweaty and feel nauseous. I also cried a lot about a few things. I felt so guilty, so ashamed and so sad.

Asking for guidance

Today I received my guidance about the following
About my unborn son. I received information from him past week that he wants to be born and that for that I need to love him and believe in him. OK, today I asked him again what I should do and got the same answer that i need to love him. In order to love him, I need to love myself. He cannot guide me what I should do to get him but the guidance will be coming from me. He also said to me Find my Daddy. i asked if H is the father, and had a feeling that he is not. I want to ask some more about this.
I did a scanning of myself. I was covered in red energy of love. I saw something dark around my throat chakra and solar plexus. I also zoomed into my uterus and saw that some place in the uterus looked very very hard. I asked what it was and got an answer that it was grief about my fallen angel. I need cry heal this grief. I also learned that Egg that will create my son will come from the right side. Right now the that egg is sleeping and will wake up when the time is right.

I asked about what courses I should take and got an answer wait and see what falls into my lap. I also asked what should I do to start my healing business and go an answer that I should clean my apartment and then i could begin. I also heard that I should stay at my current job and something will change around April. I also heard the word "promotion" again.

Day 20, half way done with the program!

I am half-way done with the program. I want to promise myself to reward myself for getting this far. What does my heart desire? It desires a manicure and pedicure at this moment. So I need to schedule an appointment, together with a haircut.

However, this is what I wrote - I need to keep my mind off financial and other affairs and place it inside me. I need to focus inside me on the divine presence and keep strong faith in the principle of abundance. I am using this principle NOW. By placing my attention n the divine spirit inside, I ensure that all my needs and desires are being met. I witness this principle in action every day. I have all I need inside, which is the source of my abundance.

Day 19

To be fulfilled, I need to be aware of the divine consciousness inside me and I will be instantaneously fulfilled. I will be instantaneously and effortlessly fulfilled and get what I need and desire instantaneously if I am aware of the truth. All I need to do is relax and be aware and all will be given to me. When I am aware of the truth, I am in the flow.

A letter of rejection

Today when I returned from in-laws, I checked my mail and found a letter from M. As I held this letter, I strongly felt that it was a rejection letter. It hit me very strongly. So I took it home and opened it and that's right, it was a rejection letter. She rejected me because she felt that what I am looking for, she cannot give me. So no clairvoyance courses for me with M. But I suppose there is a different purpose to this and now I am not held here by the courses.

I start feeling more and more that I need to leave this country, but where should I go?

Day 18

All I need to do is be conscious of God within me and it is capable of providing everything I desire and manifesting all I need. I need to be conscious, aware and understand this truth and all will be given to me. Al I need to do is just believe.

My decision about M.'s course

I was a little torn about the clairvoyance course, but last night two things happened. I met with T and learned that he is also stuying clairvoyance and mediumship. Then I realized that a lot of resistance was due to my own negative feelings about this kind of work. Then I talked to him how much I want to do platform clairvoyance because I am this little clown and I love the spotlight and love making people laugh, and realized that it was NOT ego driven,but rather it was my mission because thinking about it made me extremely happy on a soul level. We talked about that a little. I also quite liked M. because thinking about meeting with her, makes me smile. Then I sent her an email asking her if she is going to provide reassurance for us during this process. On the way home while driving, I got a message saying that of course she is going to provide it. I also got a message that said (in the local language) "She is a very kind woman. She will take care of you. Then I also realized that when I sent email to M., I was smiling, because i was thinking about our meeting and it was so nice! So I felt good about the course last night and today I feel the same, so I just signed up. So exciting! I feel bubbles of joy inside about this.

Interesting thing was while I was walking to M. home on Wednesday this week, I enjoyed the smells of the trees. I have never been in that area before, even though it is close to my home, but there was this wonderful smell in the air. As I was walking towards her house, I was very happy inside and somehow had a feeling that I was walking home.

Day 17

First of all, I feel good about my decision to study with M. Let's see if she responds and takes me in.

Now my thoughts- It is God's responsibility through my divine mind to be an limitless source of abundance and provide all my needs and desires. It is not my responsibility. All I need is to allow the divine mind provide for me,by being conscious of this truth. that's all I have to do. The rest is God's job to provide and manifest all my needs and desires into being.

I see a difference between day 7 and day 17. In day 7 I say I need to trust that God will provide all I need but in day 17 I do believe that he will provide for me. Wow, that is a huge difference. In day 7 I also talk about the need to let go of me doing things and have confidence that the divine will help, but in day 17, I have let go and have confidence and do let the divine help me. I have no anxiety and very little fear today. Big difference in only 10 days!

See what I wrote in day 7.
I need to let go! Need to trust that God (the divine) will take care of things with the best results. Trust in God! My divine mind has unlimited source of abundance and unlimited supply. The only thing I need to do is to be aware of this source/unlimited supply and to let go of trying to control AND have trust and confidence that God (the divine mind) will provide for me according to my needs and wishes without any limitations. There are no limitations in what can be provided! None, as the supply is unlimited. I am loved and supported and get all the help I need. My divine mind is my connection to the universal divine and I know that the divine loves me and is helping me every step of the way. All my wishes have been fulfilled and are being fulfilled.

Day 16

Because supply inside is limitless, and I can manifest everything I need and desire, it is not possible for me not to have my needs and desires met. All of my needs and desires have been met, are being met, and will be met. There is no limit to what can be met, the only limitation is my left brain that can only think of limited solutions. I need the needs and desires come from my soul and divine mind which have absolutely no limitations, and then the divine mind and soul inside me really can create miracles and can really make these things happen.

Good things will come, I just have to have faith and patience because when the time is right, they will come. I have to wait and trust that the best for me will come. At the same time, I can create via the efforts of my mind and soul manifesting EVERYTHING I desire.

The only thing in day 6 that I said that I did not say here was that "My inner source and inner supply is the only true source of my happiness."

TaDA!

I met with a famous clairvoyant, known from TV, and she tested me and thought I have good skills.She also told me that I will get a child when the time is right. She said that she sees me leaving this little Shengen state at the end of this year.

She gave me something to hold in my hand to see if I get any feelings about it. Immediately I started seeing pictures of an older woman with grayish hair, overweight, long skirt, with broomstick, looking like peasant. Then I felt she is like a grandmother, is very caring, I saw a kitchen and her cooking there. When M. asked me about her family I sensed that she has a husband, but he seems far away as if they are divorced. Then I zoomed into her children situation and saw 3 heads but it was not so clear.
It was very hard as I was constantly doubting myself and trying to analyze if the information is coming in as pictures or as feelings or as messages. So there was resistance and some blocking that I could feel. I also felt that it was all my imagination. However, what I sensed about this woman was correct, other than her cooking as she does not cook. She is older, overweight, wears skirts mostly, not pants. Have grandmotherly feel about her. She is divorced and has 2 children and one abortion/miscarriage. I was very impressed by what I have done.

She did some clairvoyance on me and was able to say that I have something about me that makes me travel around. she said that I will be using everything I have learned in about 2-3 years. She said that I have many talents and interests and want to pursue all of them, and not happy if I cannot do something. So she told me to relax and just let things come. She also said that my throat chakra and solar plexus chakra had problems (block in the throat chakra and something else in another chakra)
Initially, I was not sure if I want to do this, but later I got very happy. I came out feeling happy. I did not want to leave.

In fact, I really want to do platform clairvoaynce and while I do not really like psychometry, I want to tell people what they are going through now and what their future holds. She also told me that we have to have 40 clients (for free) and she will teach us how to get clients and what to say to them which is my main problem - doubting myself.

Day 15

So it's day 15, 25 more days to go.

My consciousness, awareness and knowledge of my divine mind is unlimited. My divine mind is the limitless supply. Therefore my supply is unlimited. All I need to do is be forever conscious of this truth, of the truth that the only true source is inside of me, and I will be supplied with everything I need. My divine mind and soul can provide all, and it can supply all. I am so thankful for that.

From day 5 I took the same notes about my thoughts, phrased differently.

My heart's playing with me

My mischievous heart was playing with me during the reiki healing. I did the emotional healing of the heart today and saw my heart crying on one hand, but the tears were not real, it wanted some attention, so it cried with big tears coming out of its eyes, and then it looked at me to see what reaction this is getting from me - so I held it and said of course I love you and I hugged it and I laughed at it being so mischievous. I felt it wanted to play.

I also started to eat emotionally and I have been eating a lot of my favorite hazelnuts. I thought that maybe I need to eat them and I am lacking some vitamins but the nuts do not taste great, so it means I do not need them for nutrition. So it is emotional eating again, so this morning I cut the cords to the nuts and also to some little sugar cravings.

conversation with my guide

I just had a very powerful conversation with my guide during my morning meditation.
I asked about my current job - should I stay there vs. the job where I interviewed last week. I got an immediate answer that I should stay at my current job and that things will improve there. I asked how long should I be there and got an answer of
6 months which will take me into April. I guess I will ask what's after that?

I also asked if I got pregnant from H's visit this weekend and got an answer no and that I should wait 3 months. Then I asked about my love life, and got an answer that I will find a partner - this came as a sentence and the it looked like this You will find a Partner - partner was written with a capital P. Then I got a message that there will be a lot of love between us and that I will be surrounded by love.

These were such a great messages! And the messages I am getting are coming in sentences now. It was like WoW!

New course in forgiveness

My fly friend recommended this course in forgiveness. This may be an answer to my prayers - as I need and would like to forgive my father, for my own sake.

I want to do this course.

day 14

Today is day 14 and these are my thoughts. Consciousness of the spirit inside me is my supply. All I need to be is aware of the spirit inside me; this spirit is God (the divine) inside me. I need to focus my consciousness on it, and this is all I need to do, as this spirit inside is the true source of limitless supply. All I need is to be aware of the spirit to manifest this supply into abundance.

In day 4, I wrote about divine presence within me which I need to be conscious of. Otherwise, very similar.

my new talisman

Forgot to mention that my new talisman, the hand with aquamarine, arrived about two weeks ago, in mid-October. It was sent to me from Israel and then via my mom. It has a blessing of a rabbi, and I can feel that it is such a powerful necklace. When I put it on for the first time, I felt the tightness around my neck. Aquamarine helps people speak up and it acts on the throat chakra. So I felt like there was a scarf around my neck when I put on this necklace. Wow! I also speak up much more about my needs after I got this necklace.

I also feel that I have pain in my body - tension in my shoulders every time I walked out of my office into the common area where my colleagues are sitting.

Day 13

When I am conscious of my divine mind and soul, when I am conscious that the source of prosperity is within me, when I am conscious that I am the only source of abundance, I become prosperous and have abundance. I am on the path of prosperity when I am conscious and aware that within me is the only source of it. I can focus and manifest all good to come into my life because of the endless, limitless source inside me.

Compared to day 3 -I thought that I am the source of true prosperity and that prosperity is my true state of being.

Day 12

My soul is divine and it is the source and substance of all. It's the source of infinite prosperity. Everything I need is inside my divine soul.

Compared to day 2, in day 2 I talked about my soul being a mastermind and a manifester of all I want. My soul has unlimited powers and it can create all I want and can make everything good to come into my life.

Day 11

I just found the time to do this - this is a repeat of these affirmations so day 11 is actually day 1.
My thoughts: God is inside me, inside my conscious. I am connected to the divine source. God (inside me) is the source of endless abundance. I am the source of endless/limitless abundance.

Day 10

"I keep my mind and thoughts off this world and I place my entire focus on God within as the only cause of my prosperity. I acknowledge the inner presence as the only activity in my financial affairs, as the substance of all things visible. I place my faith in the principle of abundance in action within me now.

My Thoughts: i only need to focus on God within me and be conscious and aware and it is the only source of my prosperity. I have faith that I have abundance and I have abundance. I have all I need inside which is the source of my abundance.

Day 9

"When I am aware of the God's self within me as my total fulfillment, then I am totally fulfilled. I am now aware of this truth. I have found a secret of life and I relax that the activity of divine abundance is eternally operating in my life. I simply have to be aware of the flow, the radiation of that creative energy which is continuously, easily, and effortlessly pouring forth from the divine consciousness. I am now aware. I am now in the flow."

My thoughts - all I need is to be aware and I will be in the flow. All I need is to be conscious of God's mind inside me, of its limitless source and supply, and I will be in the flow. The supply is effortlessly, easily and continuously coming forth in everything that I do when I am aware. When I am aware, I am in the flow. Because I know this Truth that I need to be aware of God's consciousness in me, and then things will come flowing into my life in abundance, in unlimited amounts, I can just relax and enjoy this. I can enjoy being in the flow.