angel cards

I am now into these angel oracle cards. It is amazing how accurate they are. I asked about my job and got a message that it is time to go. I asked about a baby and a card fell out of the deck entitled Child. I also asked today about our apartment situation - our tenant announced that she is moving out as of TODAY. The cards said that it was a perfect timing. Now I am going to put this baby apartment on the market and try to sell it.

I signed up for the ATP course

I signed up for the ATP course in Kona, HII after long deliberation. As soon as I sent them an email I felt a tingling sensation all over my body. Amazing!

and so he left

And so he left. We drove to Germany last Friday and I flew back this morning. That's it. He is gone.
Where did our love go? What happened to it? I think it got killed among all the casual aspects of living together combined with infertility. He also told me that he doesn't want to have a DE child. With the relationship not moving forward (but rather moving backward) what should I do? What should I do? Where is the progress? All I can see is that we cannot live together. Our habits are not compatible and we do not have the same goals in life.

Well, let's see. He is back in two weeks. We will chat.

On to the more real things and madonna from Candelaria

In my "real" life, H is moving to Germany on the 20th July. I have two job interviews in Germany next week. It is crazily busy for me. Going on vacation Friday - crazy! It is a mess at home, I really want him to move out. I need time to digest things and to be alone for now as a lot of unusual things are happening to me that cannot be explained in rational way, like my experience with the madonna in a church in Candelaria, for example. I asked Madonna for a baby and immediately had a vision of her having a child and handing it to me and I took the baby from her. It was insane! What was even more insane was that I felt the connection with her. I connected with her heart to heart.
I need to accept what I am seeing and experiencing and digest these experiences and move on.
I am going to give an ad to advertise my new business in early August. Very excited!
Also thinking about the DE thing. Maybe will do it in November. Let's see. I have to decide by the end of August. I hope the madonna vision was right and I will get my baby if it was meant to be for me.

I am an angel

I was on the plane when i realized I was an angel. Once I realized that, I needed confirmation. I asked for a sign of confirmation that this is real. I also realized that the logo for my business must have angel wings. I first went on the internet to google angel wings. I got a book about angel healing. I thought what kind of angel am I if I do not know about angel healing. So I book marked a book or two on amazon.com. Then in my healing class, I talked about feeling my angelic essense. The next day I found 3 books on the shelf in the hallway about angel therapy. I asked who brought these books and it was my classmate who brought the books for me! These were exactly the books that I was looking on the internet. This was the confirmation I was looking for. But then I asked for a second confirmation that this was real.
That day in class we visualized and imagined who we really are. I saw an image of myself as a butterfly. When I came home I saw a huge butterfly sitting on the window of my living room. I took it as a second confirmation of the reality of my experience. Every possible door or window were closed. I do not know how the butterfly got in. But yet I needed another confirmation that I was an angel and that the experience was real.

Then I went to J, the healer to talk about my experience. I need to validate it, otherwise i am very confused about what is happening to me now. After leaving him, I noticed that the name of the street where I parked my car and it was (translated) Angelplace street. I took it as a third confirmation. Then I read the books by Doreen Virtue, who wrote about Angel Therapy. I am planning to take a course to learn about Angel Therapy. I want to use it with my clients.