i understand why I got this roommate

I understood why I got this roommate. She is my mirror. Everything in her life is not right. Just like in my life, things in my life are not right. So I need to use her as an indicator to mirror to her or to myself that these aspects of my life are great. I will soon start blogging about that.

he came today to pick up his stuff

He came today to get his stuff. It was nice to see hiim and interact with him on the surface. If only he told me how much he wants me in his life and invite me to come to be with him and that we would figure out what the future looks like together, I would leave everything I have here and come. But he did not do it. He also felt it was the right thing to do to separate and that life takes us in different directions. I felt it would be wrong for us to get back together but the pain of losing him was so strong!
So now he is gone.
I am so grateful for H and her husband S who took me in today and let me cry. She was the shoulder I could cry on. So nice!