reflection

Reflection Prompts:

1. Are you in tune with your intuitive voice? If so, do you let it guide you? If not, what interferes?   many times yes but not when i am stressed lose control or angry
2. Are you impacted or influenced by other people’s opinions? How so? Would you change that if you could?                                                                                                      
3. Make a list of situations or people who make you feel the most authentic.                                               Lisette  Elena   Hanne. Sometimes A. Also E.   Or some bdsm scenes.  when I can freely share my fantasies
4. Do you often share how you are really feeling or thinking? Why or why not?                               Yes but not w everyone. I follow my feeling if to share or not. Sometimes I dont know if i should express it or not.
5. How could you be authentically available in each moment of your life? Could you be authentically available to someone else? What would that look or sound like?                                                          Constantly connected to myself. my core and make all steps out of that place.  No reaction. Following the flow.

journaling

1. When do you feel happiest or at peace in your own skin?                                                                    When i am dancing and am in a flow. When i am relaxed. When i am doing some kind of bdsm practice. After sex. being w friends. Tantric circles. After shibari. When being in a flow and manifesting.
2. What words do you need to hear often? What words do you need to hear right now?                          I need to hear right now - vse budet khorosho. Vse u tebya poluchitsya. Dont focus on 1 %. Focus only on 99 %.   I need to hear often: I love you. You are doing your very best. You made some mistakes. Everyone makes mistakes. It is OK to make mistakes.  You are a good mother. 
3. Considering your hopes and dreams as a child, how would your ten-year-old self feel about what you have accomplished thus far in life?                                                                                           My 10yo would feel amazed at what I have accomplished. Would also feel sad for me for being sad but would appreciate my bravery and following my heart-. it is truly amazing what I have done in my life. 
4. How might you move forward with only your best interests in mind?                                                 have much more fun in my life. Going out 2 times per week and have fun. Not listen to perfectionist voice. Yet being careful how i spend money. Sleeping on it if i need to make a big purchase. Tell myself I love you often. Look at how far you have come.
5. How can you relate to this quote by JM Storm? “And the more she loved herself, the simpler it became for her. And the more complex it became for everyone else.”                                                  Yes it is about putting me and my needs first. and being unapologetic about it.

Self nourishment

1. How often do you nourish yourself with necessities like plenty of water, rest, exercise, nutritious food, or by engaging in a hobby? Is this enough or not? How do you know?                                         No! I do not. I forget to drink and eat same boring foods. Do not get enough rest. Dont do enough hobbying. I feel a lack. I feel my life is not fun. I am stuck at home. I miss being around guys.
2. Describe your inner voice in a couple of words. Would you want your child or loved one to have an inner voice with those same qualities?                                                                                                 Harsh demanding. Critical. Very critical. I am not enough. NO!!!
3. How do you treat yourself when you mess up?  I berate myself. How stupid can you get!! lots of blaming.  Ridiculing.                                                                                                                                             Is it similar to the way you treat your loved ones when they make a mistake?  Yes.                  Would you prefer to respond differently? In what way? I would like to be more loving of mysef. more gente and more forgiving yet still keeping myself responsible. Not putting me down.  More accepting voice. More positive voice.         
4. Do you think having a more positive inner voice could improve your everyday life or your relationship with a specific person? Please elaborate.                                                                             I would like to get a positive inner voice to interact better w my kid. To be more patient. More forgiving. Not blaming for very small t hings. Letting go. Asking if it is important. Being able to pause. Not overreacting. Have her tell me secrets without being afraid of my reaction.                                                                       

d17

The divine consciousness that I am is forever expressing its true nature of abundance. This is its responsibility, not mine. My only responsibility is to be aware of this truth. Therefore, I am totally confident in letting go and letting God appear as the abundant all-sufficiency in my life and affairs.

Sending lots of love to my bank accounts. Visualizing my money expanding. and expanding and growing and growing. Visualizing a supply of money and me receiving 12000 Euro into my account NOW. And so mote it be!!!
Surrounding my potential employers wit lots of love. lots and lots of love. Sending them love from my heart. Visualizing signing a fantastic contract and starting my new job 1 March. And so mote it be!!! Amen!!

A Practice in True Self-Worth

1. Write an encouraging note-to-self to read next time you are feeling defeated or in doubt. Include your positive traits or things you do that help other people.                                                                I love you so much! You will succeed. You will persevere. You have always persevered and used your magic to turn things around. It will happen to you again. Success is on its way to you NOW.
2. List two people who inspire you. What inspires you about them? How are they admirable?  How are they imperfect? How are you like them?                                                                                Hessie. Open hearted. Inspiring. Authentic. True leader. I am also authentic and true and very brave. Am following my heart also.    Cannot think of a second person.
3. How can you be kinder to yourself today? What are specific things you say to yourself to be more compassionate and accepting today?                                                                                                   I love you very much. You are fantastic. A great mother. A survivor. I love you no matter what. No matter what I will stand by you.  <3 a.="" a="" absolutely="" and="" are="" best.="" best="" doing="" for="" great="" her="" li="" love.="" love="" model.="" mom="" myself.="" nbsp="" nly="" only="" role="" the="" today="" towards="" very="" you="" your="">

D16

My inner supply instantly and constantly takes on form and experience according to my needs and desires and as a principle of supply in action, it is impossible for me to have any needs or unfulfilled desires.

Sending lots of love to my bank accounts. Visualizing them expanding. Lots and lots of love to them. Lots and lots of love. Visualizing them expanding significiantly. and so it is!!
Visualizing myself calm and collect and the situation w As psych referral working out in the best possible way.  and so it is!!

Sending lots and lots of love to projects. Visualizing many projects coming to me. Many many. Sending love to specific projects that are right for me. And so it is!!!  visualizing myself signing a great contract. And so mote it be!!

D15

money is not my supply. No person, place or condition is my supply. My awareness, understanding and knowledge of the all-providing activity of the Divine Mind within me is my supply. My consciousness of this Truth is unlimited, therefore my supply is unlimited.

Sending lots of love to my employers. Lots and lots of love. sending lots and lots of love to my clients who want to get readings. Who are suffering and need to know the future. Sending lots of love to my potential rma clients. visualizng me signing a fantastic contract. and so mote it be!
Sending a lot of love to my bank account. lots and lots of love. Visualizing money on my account expanding and expanding and expanding. And so it is.