Friday, April 24, 2009

tomorrow is my first angel workshop

Tomorrow is my first angel workshop. I am so excited, so happy.
I also realized that in my profile is says that I am a dreamer and a scientist but want to be a spiritual teacher. I AM a spiritual teacher, the demand for my services given my limited time has been overwhelming.
I have a waiting list (of 1 person) to join the workshop. So I am going to kick off the next workshop.

Now I need to change in my profile what I want to be.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

day 34

I am my own supply. I am a master manifester able to create my own reality. I manifest easily and effortlessly the reality I desire. Things are happening for me now and all the doors are open.

I am filled with gratitude today as I had a fantastic day: I spent the night with H at his mom's place, spent this glorious spring day enjoying my mediumship course, learning so much. I am so grateful that I am so eager to learn and open to his criticisms and suggestions. I am so grateful that I am able to improve. Thank you!

I am so grateful that I am filled with love for my clients, I have so much love for them. I am sending them love. I am sending love to P, the client who came to see me yesterday. She is anxious, I am sending her a lot of love and affirming that things will be well with her. I am sending love to people attending my workshop in April, sending love to all of the people on the boards where I posted my ad. Sending lots of love to all of the potential clients and potential attendees. Sending them love and gratitude for being able to fill this love.

Sending love to the universe, to the world, surrounding the world with the light of my love. Love is coming straight from my heart! Sending love to myself, my hair, my body, sending love to my mom, LOTS of love to her, sending love to H, sending love to his family. Thank you for letting me be in touch with this love. Thank you!

OK, I am back

I am back now. SOmehow I changed my diet -eat more fruit and fiber, stopped eating meat, stopped eating late in the evening, drink prune juice to make sure that I am not constipated and my sleep has improved. Also the hair loss dimished. I am also moving to a new place already next week. A place next to water, lots and lots of water. Should be good for me. I look forward to it.

On tuesday next week, a feng shui woman is coming, so look forward to that too. Still looking for a roommate. Let's see.

Friday, March 20, 2009

I am so grateful

My first ever real workshop where I teach people to connect with their angels will take place on 25 April. I believe I already have 3 people who signed up. I am so grateful for this, I cannot really express the gratitude in words.

Today I received an email from one of the women who would like to take the course and she said to me she was grateful that she was able to take this workshop. That touched me so, it really touched my heart and my eyes filled with tears as I felt so grateful that I am able to make such a big difference in these people's lives.

I feel such a huge responsibility, I feel that it is my role to help them get in touch with their hearts, and open them up to the guidance of their angels to ensure they lead the best life they could possible lead. It is such a big role, and my ego is scared and makes me want to hide and run away, but I know in my heart that these people need me now and if I cannot do this work, then who else will help them? And this makes me stay and continue, despite my shyness, despite my fears.

I am sending all of them love. I am surrounding all of them in a pink cloud of love straight from my heart.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Not in a good state of mind at the moment

I am not in a good state of mind at the moment. I am sad about H and me. I love him so much but feel that it is our time to say good byes. I am realizing that it is not him who is a bad guy who cannot return to me or cannot pay for me to come to Germany. It is just how the circumstances are. He is a wonderful guy, so sweet and I love him so much. I love him dearly. He is my friend, lover and a confidant.
But I feel I am spending a lot of energy to heal myself and it is my focus right now. I need to nurse myself back to health, whatever it takes. I cried yesterday to my mother. Not about loosing but about being alone, not having a family, moving to this shitty country for him and being alone in the end. And on top of it, being sick. I cried and cried. Today I cried because the prospective pain of loosing him set in. I cried and screamed like a wounded animal but I feel it is something I MUST do, let him go. Maybe in May.

Readings in a bookstore

Well, what happened was I was very sick, with a fever but still I pushed myself to come. Before I went I asked how many clients would come and got that it was 3 clients, so 45 min.

Then I had a man who came. He was in distress and I think I really helped him a lot. But he was the only one. He spent with me about 40 min but I only charged him for 15. So maybe this was that (3 clients = 1 client of 40 min). It was so cold, and I was afraid I will get sick. I did not feel so well towards the end and wanted to leave but in general it was a good learning experience. I had some questions that I asked on the board and got answers, so it was OK. I got my issues resolved.

Friday, March 13, 2009

Day 33

My consciousness is filled with the light of truth when I am aware of me being divine and being the source of my own abundance and prosperity. That means I can manifest anything I want, anything my heart desires. I am focusing right now on manifesting love, fun and gratitude in my life.

I am very grateful that yesterday I was able to sleep. Thank you! I am grateful because my workshop went well and I got very good feedback. I am grateful because tomorrow I am going to be at the bookstore doing reading. I can see people sitting there waiting for me. I am sending them love. I am sending love to all the customers who will come to see me tomorrow.

I am sending love to myself. I am sending love to H, my mom, his family. I am sending love to all my clients, so much love. I see them enveloped with this pink cloud of love. I have so much love for them. Thank you.

I am grateful that this girl M sent me a very nice email to thank me for the session. Which means she liked it. I am so grateful for this. I am sending her so much love.

I am focusing on fun in my life right now. I am manifesting friends, and fun activities to come into my life NOW.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Angel workshop yesterday

The angel workshop yesterday went well. I had 4 beautiful and wonderful women. I loved them.I think they liked it too!
I did intro, then cleared their hearts and did the chanelling. It was wonderful!

day 32 (done on 9 March 2009)

I am the source and substance of all my good. I am very grateful for today. I had a fantastic session. My client was happy and so was I. I am so grateful I could be of service to her. So grateful.

I am sending her a lot of love, love, love. I am also sending love to myself and my clients. I m sending love to H, my mom, his mom. I am so grateful for this. Grateful I could help. I am sending love to the 5 women tomorrow who are coming to my Angel event. I am sending love to the room. I am sending love to the people who are coming to see me on Saturday. So grateful. I feel gratitude to be of service. Thank you. I was touched to tears by the light I saw inside my client's heart. I am so blessed to be able to be in touch with my feelings and be moved. thank you!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

day 31

I am God. I am omnipresent and powerful creator of my own reality.

I am very grateful today because I had a fantastic day. We spent a very relaxing morning together and visited H's relatives. It was a nice visit, with great food. I so enjoyed the food and the desert and the sausages were divine!
Then we went for a nice walk, really nice. The air was so crisp, it was warm and the sun was shining. I am grateful for this experience.
I am also grateful for I chanelled some information for H which is actually something for me. I am happy that I am able to do this, and that my connection to the Source is so strong. I can hear information so very clearly! Thank you for this.

I am also grateful because I feel full of love today. I am grateful that tomorrow my client is coming. I am sending her a lot of love. I am grateful that on Tuesday I have my Angel event, I am sending love to the 5 women that are attending. Lots of love. Sending love to the place where the event will be held. Thank you. Thank you that I am so in touch with the love in my heart.
I am also grateful because the event went perfectly well (divinely) well. I received a lot of information about what I should do. So grateful.

Also so grateful that this week is my event at the bookstore. I am grateful for the clients that are coming. I am sending them so much love. I love them so much!! Thank you for giving me this ability to love and to feel that my heart is filed with love.

So grateful for that.

Saturday, March 7, 2009

day 30

I place my faith in God. I place my faith in myself as the Divine being that is connected to God. I have faith in myself and my abilities to manifest the reality I desire. I am now aware of this truth that I am a master manifester and am manifesting only positive experiences in my life.

I am also aware that I am moving forward towards manifesting my heart's desires. Easily and effortlessly I am getting in touch with my heart to manifest what I desire.

I am filled with gratitude today for I had a fantastic day. Great weather, nice walk, the sun was shining, a perfect day. Cannot get any better. I am also grateful because I am filled with love today. I am sending love from my heart to myself, H, the universe, my mother, his family and all human beings. I am sending love to my clients, I am sending them a lot of love. I am sending love to the girl who is coming on Monday. I am sending love to the 3 women who want to take my workshop. I am sending them a lot of love. I am sending lots of love to all the women who are signing up for my workshop.I am sending a lot of love to the women who signed up for my angel event on Tuesday. I am so happy that I feel so much love towards them. I will be of great service to them and they will also teach me things. They will teach me about love.

I am sending lots of love towards my activities related to RUssia. I am surrounding Russia and the company with a lot of love. I am grateful that I can be in touch with this love. Thank you!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

day 29

I am now aware of the truth that I am a master manifester and can manifest any reality I want. I am now aware. I am now in the flow.

I am very grateful because I had a very good meeting today. I am grateful because I could function today and got many things done. I am grateful because I am in good spirits. I am grateful because I am in touch with my source of love. I am grateful because my client is coming next week and TUesday I have my workshop. I am sending my clients a lot of love, straight from my heart. Thank you, I am so grateful for the opportunity to make a difference in people's lives.

Thank you.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

day 28

I can get anything I desire. All I need to do is manifest and trust and it will be there.

My lesson now is to TRUST. Trust the guidance that I receive.
I am very grateful today as the girl who wanted to see me is coming. She is coming next week and I am grateful that she chose me as her teacher. I am also grateful for sleeping today. Thank you. I am also grateful for the wonderful message I got at the kinesiologist today. Thank YOU. I will be following my guidance from now on, no detours.

I am filled with love, sending this love from my heart to myself, my loved ones, and the universe, and to every human being. I am sending my love to the beings of light. I am sending lots of love to my clients, and to the 3 girls who are going to sign up to my workshop. I am sending lots of love to the people who are going to sign up for the workshop in April and who signed up for the Angel event in March.

I am enveloping them in the pink shield of love. They are SO loved. They are surrounded by angels and divine light. I am so happy for them because they will begin a transformation that will drastically change their lives for the better.

I am so grateful that my heart is open and that I can be in touch with my source constantly. I am so happy!

today at the kinesiologist

Today I went to a kinesiologist who told me that there is nothing wrong with me. She tested me and nothing absolutely nothing was wrong. Just like my friend M when she did a clairvoyance for me, she saw that there was nothing wrong.
The kinesiologist told me that I need to start living from my heart. Btw this morning I got a message that I need to listen to her and do what she recommends. I need to follow things that make me feel like the angel readings and workshops. This is what is good for me. THen the energy in my body is circulating and I have enough energy to regenerate and heal myself. She asked me if there was an area of my life where I was not listening to my own guidance and I told her that it was my personal life as I was told that I need to leave H, but I have not done so.

But it was a good visit, she balanced me, it was all good.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

day 27

I need to let go. I need to TRUST. Follow my divine guidance step by step without questioning. My responsibility is to know that I am Divine that mysoul is divine and is providing everything I need or desire and trust my guidance that will take me to where I am supposed to go, to lead me to manifestation of my desires.

I am so grateful today as I had a fantastic day. My manager offloaded a lot of work off my shoulders. Thank you for this. I can relax and enjoy and I am relaxing and enjoying. I am grateful that 3 people have signed up for my workshop in April. I am sending them love, surrounding them in love. I am sending love to myself, to H, to his family, to my mother and to every living creature on this planet. I am surrounding the planet in pink light of love.

I am grateful today as I have an idea what I am going to teach at my workshop on Tuesday. I am grateful as I know I got angels on my side supporting me leading me through this. I am happy I have 5 wonderful women joining my workshop. This is so wonderful. I am sending them LOVE, LOVE, LOVE. I am grateful that people gave me advice about my workshop, and that includes Doreen. That I need to have fun and everyone will have fun. HOw true. I am grateful for this advice. Thank you very much.

I am grateful for the guidance I got today that I need to follow the advice that my kinesiologist will give me tomorrow. Thank you very much for this. I am very grateful.

Monday, March 2, 2009

day 26

My supply is unlimited and therefore all of my needs and desires are fulfilled. All I need to do is wish for and the subject of my true desire will materialize.

Right now I am wishing for the feeling of gratitude. I am very grateful to the Universe for my life. I am so grateful eternally grateful for my day today where I was so productive.
I am so grateful that I have so much love inside and am in touch wiht this love. I am so grateful that today I am sleeping 8 hours and getting uninterrupted sleep. And so it is. I am grateful and full of love for my clients, for H, for his sister, for his mom. Thank YOU! Thank YOU. I have so much love for my mother. I am sending love from my heart to all of them. I am enveloping the universe in a pink shield of love. I LOVE so deeply. I am love. I am love itself. Thank you very much for being able to feel this love deep in my heart.

I am also so grateful that my workshop is coming up so soon and I have so many ideas how I should prepare for it. Thank YOU.

Monday, February 23, 2009

day 25 of the PP

I am my own supply. My consciousness of this truth is unlimited; therefore my supply is unlimited. I am grateful that my supply of love is unlimited. I am filled with love. I have so much love to give. I give it to myself,, sending it to myself, enveloping myself in the pink cloud of love. I am sending it to my mother, to H, and his family, enveloping them in a lot of love. Sending sending sending love from my heart to them. Sending love from my heart to my clients. Enveloping them in the pink light of love. I am so grateful that I can help them. Thank you. Thank YOU.

In particular I am sending love to this girl who contacted me. Sending her a lot of love. May she get what she needs in her development path.

I am grateful that I am in touch with this love and can feel in my heart so clearly! Thank YOU. I am also grateful for a good day today where I was productive. I am grateful tomorrow I do not need to go to work until THursday, grateful that I am traveling to Germany on Thursday evening. Thank you.

I am also grateful that the space that my friend occupied is now open. A big space is open for a new friend or friends.

I am upset at my friend Ye

Upset at my friend Ye. She does not really care about me, she knows I am sick but shows no interest in how things are going. However I did get a message that I need to let her go and I had this feeling for a long time, so this is the answer. Our vibrations no longer match and I do have a lot of hurt, since the time she did not support me when I had my miscarriage.
I want to send love to myself to heal the hurt. I want to be grateful that her space in my life is now empty and there is space for someone else to come in. Thank you for this. Thank you.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

day 24

I am my supply. My spirit is divine and is connected to God. This supplies me with EVERYTHING I need and want.
I am so filled with gratitude. I feel grateful for my life, for being able to be a lightworker, for people, my clients who come to me. I am so grateful that they come to me, grateful for feeling so happy that I can help them, that they leave illuminated and at peace. I am grateful that I give them so much love and grateful that I can feel this love inside me.
I am grateful for today I had a good day. I rested, slept well, had a delicious chicken soup. I am so grateful for today. I am grateful I saw my friend M today, and she gave me the instruction to improve my social life. So grateful for that. I am grateful that I found this meditation group I am going to join. Grateful that I have decided to work part time or otherwise to call in sick. So grateful that I have the courage to do it.
So grateful I got the instructions for sure about the roommate and the moving company. Thank YOU!!
SO grateful for the good news about my growing angel practice. Made me so happy!!!

Channeled information today

Chanelled info today
I asked about the future of my angel practice and got these 3 cards

1. No worries - surrender cares and worries to G-d and the angels and know that everything is truly in divine order.
I saw myself blindfolded walking in the forest, b/n the trees. I am blindfolded, walking not confidently, a bit afraid, a little shaky, but am starting to enjoy the smells, the fresh air, the feeling of being in the forest. Hear "walk the path, my child, walk the path. Take small steps, step by step, one step at a time". "You are going to the right destination, you are realizing your mission. People are coming to you now. A crowd. As you walk the path, you will realize later where you are going, but it is not the time to know. You need to follow blindly the advice and guidance of the angels. This is your main lesson now. Step by step, one step at a time, without knowing what the next step would be. We love you so much! You are so loved!!! If you could only feel the extent of this love! "
"We are standing by you and helping you in this time of transition. You are protected and have nothing to fear. "

"Step by step, one step at a time, without knowing what the next step would be. We are leading you to your destination where you will be happy and fulfilled."
Got a quote "Angel circles sprouting"

2. Success. A favorable outcome is assured
Huge success. You will be able to support yourself with this if you want to. You will be a full time lightworker if you choose to. Your job is to spread the light and open the hearts of others. Illuminate them on their path to fertility and abundance. You will be a mother (to a little boy from China? not sure if this was right but had to write it down). You are a mother in your heart and in your mind. You are a great mother.
People will come to you in great numbers seeking help, to help connect them with their children, with the souls of their unborn ones. This is your mission. You will be happy and fulfilled. Enjoy your time alone, for soon you will be nurturing another. Love and peace to you, on your journey to your destination.

3. Gratitude -Focus on what is positive in your life and you will attract even more positive situations.
Continue with the abundance tape, finish 40 days. Focus on the gratitude. Focus on love. Be thankful for what you have. Success will ensue.

Now I had some questions.
What should I do about my angel practice, where should I take it?
You made all the right steps, now sit and wait. People will come to you themselves. They will come in great numbers for your spiritual teachings. You are a great teacher and you will have followers. You will train them so that they could spread the light.

Anything I should do now?
No, sit and wait. They will come to you themselves.

Anything I need to do? Take classes?
Paul J. is the next step in your evolution, but nothing else is needed now. Meditate regularly. No healing with SS. Channeling class is also not needed. Paul J now, then wait. You won't have time to learn, for you will be needed in the world by your clients.

What about the apartment?
You will need a roommate for 6 months, someone you were supposed to meet and learn from. It will be a woman, a foreigner in her 30's. A professional woman. A blond? You will recognize her. Give her the bedroom and you will be in the room by the sea. She will move in in May. Look for her on the boards. Expat boards. She speaks English (and Dutch?).

What about improving my organization?
Your SIL will help. and call L.K.

What about my job?
Start working part time. She (your boss) will let you. Speak to HR about Russia rotation. Talking to Mr B will take you to the next step, as there will be a need for you. The new job is in the works, it is coming soon. The job dealing with Russia.

The girl that contacted me, I got to know that I should meet with her on 5 March and it will take 2 hours and no more. I should charge her 99995. And it will be enough. She is very advanced and will catch up fast. I will give her a peace of mind. She will be grateful. Wait until tomorrow to tell her. It will go well and you will help her.

What about my health, does it have anything to do with H?
Not sure if I understood the answer as they said to me that my system is stressed. His energy is affecting me. But when i get well, there will be no need for the pills.

Furniture - I should buy new furniture and rent out the apt when I go to Russia.

Now I better continue with my abundance plan.

I love my angel practice!!

This is my answers to some Q&A posted on the board.

Are you currently doing your Lightwork full-time? part-time? not currently getting paid for it?
I have a left brain job and I made a decision that I will limit the hours I work there to part time (to 30 hours per week), one way or the other, so that I have more time to concentrate on my practice.I am a part-time lightworker and it feels so good to say that I am a lightworker. Whoo hoo!!! I get paid for my wonderful work since late last year.

Do you incorporate other modalities into what you do?
I just use angelic guidance and channel information for my clients. I am also a healer (Reiki master), but so far I have not used this as there was not a demand for this and I also do not feel so connected to Reiki, but so very connected to Angel practice, OMG!!!.

How is your business these days?
Since I am just starting out, and I live in a foreign country and do everything in English and not in the local language, things are going remarkably well. I feel that clients have started to come now and I have a feeling that there is a lot more clients that will come to me - it will be a hurricane! I am so excited about it!!!

Do you do mostly individual readings? Workshops? Classes?
Right now it is individual readings, but it is started to go towards workshops and teaching people more than doing readings. Someone just approached me to create a program for her where she could learn to connect to her angels and open up spiritually. I feel that my future may be in that.

What advice are the angels giving you about your practice?
I need to TRUST, work on being in abundance and not worry about money, and importantly, follow their guidance ALL THE TIME, every time. I need to forget about focusing on HOW and focus on what I desire. It is sometimes not so easy (CCD), but this is the lesson. And... taking one step at the time, without knowing what the next step will be. So far they have led me to where I need to go, led me to where I can advertise my services, all for free, gave me names of people who could help me, so I am very grateful to them for help.

What's your greatest joy with your practice?
Oh my God! I cannot really tell what it is, but it makes me happy giving information to clients, just sitting there and doing readings, gives me so much joy! Why that is, I have no idea.

What's your greatest challenge?
To take one step at the time, to take one step without knowing what the next one will be and so far it has been minimizing my time at my full time job and mimimizing its importance so that I could spend more time doing what I really love.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

after vacation in Switzerland

I am so grateful for the fantastic vacation in Switzerland! I saw the most beautiful views of the mountains and forests covered with snow. This was a picture from my dreams, really. Or rather, my dream vision. I love snow!! I truly am a snow butterfly.

It was so nice to spend time with H. I feel I love him so much. I am so grateful for feeling this way and happy for the time together we are having. So grateful!

I also got a message from this woman, she is seeking peace inside. I am praying that she finds that. She wants some help to develop her psychic gifts, and I will be happy to help her if she feels that I am the right person. I also gave her another name who can help her. I am sending her so much love and so much peace, I hope she finds peace of mind and the right teacher for psychic development soon. Peace be upon her!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

to be grateful for

I am very grateful, as my advertisement has been posted on the expat website!!! Yey!!
Now I posted a news about my workshop on another expat website. Yey!!!

So happy about this! So happy I am going away for a few days to Switzerland!

it was not a good day yesterday

Yesterday was not a good day. I am getting sicker and I think it is my job that is making me very very stressed. I am a bit conflicted what to do. I am now praying for help.
PLEASE GOD HELP ME!

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

day 23

The only truth is that I am connected to God, my soul is divine and I am a master manifester that can manifest any reality I desire. I am so grateful for this as this puts my soul in charge of my universe.

I have a lot to be grateful for today. My heart is filled with gratitude. I had a fantastic day yesterday. I went to see my friend. I slept for 6 1/2 hours without being interrupted. Thank you, thank you!
I am sending a lot of love today to my mother. She is so fantastic! I am so grateful that she is my mother. i am sending a lot of love today to H's mother. She is so great! I so appreciate that she is helping me move!!! I have so much gratitude. Thank you!!!

I am so grateful that soon I will know the results of the tests and a picture will be more clear. Iam so grateful that I am going on holiday on Friday!!!

I am filled with love, I am sending this love to my clients, to all people on Earth. I am giving them so much love and they sense it and come to me. I am so grateful because I am mhelping so many people. Thank you!!! I am grateful that I can feel and sense love in my heart.