Well, in a few hours, I will be on the plane to LA. Yesterday I went on a swimming with the dolphins trip. It was a milestone for me. The boat was small and jumped on the waves, so I was scared at the beginning, but then I thought that I have a HUGE mission, so NOTHING could happen to me until I achieve this mission. So I was telling myself "I am safe", "I am safe", I enjoy this ride and I really enjoyed it.
Then we saw some dolphins and it was so wonderful. We had to chase them though, so we did not get to swim with them. However, we were lucky to see humback whales very close. there were 3 -mother, son and a father. I thought that it is a message for me that my family is coming. the whales were doing all sort of things in front of us, jumping, turning, waiving their tails and fins. They were 20-30 meters away.
And... I did get into the water. I was scared, but I got in and it was wonderfully healing. The whole trip was divine and healing.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Friday, March 21, 2008
i am thinking of writing a book
I am also thinking of writing a book. I will create a separate blog attached to this one where I will be writing it.
the trip is amazing
The whole trip to this course in Hawaii is absolutely amazing! Every moment here is like a WOW moment. It is absolutely amazing. I will be posting my experiences and readings I received in this blog probably when I return. I cannot believe I only have one day left of the course!
my first mediumship attempt
Today we practiced mediumship. It was fantastic, so healing! I sensed this woman's grandmother. OK, I described her accurately, what she wore, that she was overweight and wore something over her shoulders. I was able to get in touch with the love this woman had for my "client" and this is something really amazing. I never felt so much powerful love in my heart. You cannot express it to a client, as it is so hard to translate this love into words. But what is more surprising, I could HEAR this woman (grandmother) talk and she had a southern twirl and my client confirmed that. It was amazing. She was showing things to me, like how much she loves my client. I was so touched and as a medium, I was crying because I was so moved. I love doing this, it is so healing.
well, a proof for my entry from 18 Nov 07
It happened. The scene in the restroom. My friend was able to talk to the teacher. Her back was facing the door like I said and the teacher's back was facing the wall.
I checked out the restrooms and the walls are marble-like and the same gray color, with some additional colorings. I also knew that the bathroom scene would happen TODAY. She also somehow wore a dress that was different from what I described in the blog but when I saw it I knew that today was the day. The dress did have green in it, rather greenish blue. I am still flabbergasted and so thrilled. This is the proof I needed of my abilities.
I checked out the restrooms and the walls are marble-like and the same gray color, with some additional colorings. I also knew that the bathroom scene would happen TODAY. She also somehow wore a dress that was different from what I described in the blog but when I saw it I knew that today was the day. The dress did have green in it, rather greenish blue. I am still flabbergasted and so thrilled. This is the proof I needed of my abilities.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
I feel a bit frustrated
Still sick, did not go to work today. I do start to feel better though, so I hope I will be ok before I travel this friday.
I am a bit frustrated because I feel I am living in this temporary state that will be over. There are changes that are coming (I feel), great changes and I live now, not in the NOW but in anticipation of these changes.
I had this feeling that a new chapter of my life will start soon, whatever this will mean. I got a feeling that I will move into the new apartment between Q2 and Q3 this year and that H will get a new job also at around the same time and this will be a very good job.
I am also frustrated because I do not have a family like everyone else and my life is not settled like everyone else I know. I want to be settled, have a normal family, a husband and a child. It frustrates me that I must wait for this to happen!
I am a bit frustrated because I feel I am living in this temporary state that will be over. There are changes that are coming (I feel), great changes and I live now, not in the NOW but in anticipation of these changes.
I had this feeling that a new chapter of my life will start soon, whatever this will mean. I got a feeling that I will move into the new apartment between Q2 and Q3 this year and that H will get a new job also at around the same time and this will be a very good job.
I am also frustrated because I do not have a family like everyone else and my life is not settled like everyone else I know. I want to be settled, have a normal family, a husband and a child. It frustrates me that I must wait for this to happen!
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
my conversation with Ye
I talked to my friend Ye today and was amazed about this. First of all, last week she called me to ask me if she should go to a place that charges 300 dollars for hair removal or a cheaper place, farther away, that charges 120 dollars. I did not say anything to her, but immediately saw her chin (underneath of it) having a brown discoloration after treatment when I zoomed into the cheap hair removal place. the discoloration was brown and yucky, like a huge and nasty birthmark.
I also saw that if she goes to the other place, she would not have all of the hairs removed. I saw her looking in the mirror at her chin, touching it, and I could feel in MY FINGERS, that her fingers would feel prickly hairs when she touches her chin. I was very amazed about my fingers feeling what her fingers feel. To me this image meant that they would not remove all of her hair. I could also feel her irritation that not all of the hair was removed.
I had to call her when I saw the brown thing on her chin and tell her not to go to the cheap place because of what I saw. She told me that it is possible they can burn her, so she was grateful for the info.
Today I told her what I saw about the hairs left over after the more expensive treatment. What she told me was that she had the treatment done already, and it is not possible to remove all of the hair on the first try, so of course she has some hairs left. I was very amazed about this because I did not know that you could not remove all of the hair on the first try. I was so thrilled about this because it was a great confirmation. But there is more.
She started telling me about this woman she met who gave her a card. This woman is a core energetics healer. She was wondering if she could go to her for healing. When she started describing the woman to me, and she said "mouth", immediately I saw a mouth with two corners pointing down, the mouth of a woman looked like a witch's mouth, so I asked her if the mouth was like a witch's mouth and she said yes and said that the two corners of the mouth were pointing down. I was really amazed that I could see it. I also asked her if the woman's nose was quite huge, also with a hump and she confirmed. Then I told her that I can see the two eyes of thsi woman and they look like two lights - there is a lot of light coming from her eyes and she confirmed that too! I was so pleased. I told Ye that she made my day, especially with the thing about her hair removal.
I also saw that if she goes to the other place, she would not have all of the hairs removed. I saw her looking in the mirror at her chin, touching it, and I could feel in MY FINGERS, that her fingers would feel prickly hairs when she touches her chin. I was very amazed about my fingers feeling what her fingers feel. To me this image meant that they would not remove all of her hair. I could also feel her irritation that not all of the hair was removed.
I had to call her when I saw the brown thing on her chin and tell her not to go to the cheap place because of what I saw. She told me that it is possible they can burn her, so she was grateful for the info.
Today I told her what I saw about the hairs left over after the more expensive treatment. What she told me was that she had the treatment done already, and it is not possible to remove all of the hair on the first try, so of course she has some hairs left. I was very amazed about this because I did not know that you could not remove all of the hair on the first try. I was so thrilled about this because it was a great confirmation. But there is more.
She started telling me about this woman she met who gave her a card. This woman is a core energetics healer. She was wondering if she could go to her for healing. When she started describing the woman to me, and she said "mouth", immediately I saw a mouth with two corners pointing down, the mouth of a woman looked like a witch's mouth, so I asked her if the mouth was like a witch's mouth and she said yes and said that the two corners of the mouth were pointing down. I was really amazed that I could see it. I also asked her if the woman's nose was quite huge, also with a hump and she confirmed. Then I told her that I can see the two eyes of thsi woman and they look like two lights - there is a lot of light coming from her eyes and she confirmed that too! I was so pleased. I told Ye that she made my day, especially with the thing about her hair removal.
Still sick and my intuition is telling me to eat things
Ok, I was still very sick but the stuff is starting to come out of my throat now, which is good but it makes it unbearable because I have to cough a lot and it also hurts. My nose was dripping today like crazy and it was so cold and windy and we were next to the water, so the cold went through to my bones. I am afraid ot get sicker.
However, my presentation went so so. I felt I could not moderate these people, but on the other hand, a positive thing was that I changed a direction of my presentation on the spot to accommodate some comments that came up. During lunch I strongly felt that I should not eat any real food, but that I could only eat sweets and soft food, so I ate apple pie which was pretty good and a mouse for lunch. I all of a sudden had this urge to eat honey - I hate honey, I have not had it in many years. But today I felt I had to eat 3 small containers of it during the meeting. Afterward for dinner I had 4 or 5 kg of tangerines and oranges and I finished off with one pineapple.
Btw, I just did a goodle search on therapeutic properties of honey and found this -Honey was originally used therapeutically for its antibacterial properties, but was replaced by antibiotics, such as penicillin and synthetic drugs, in the 1940s and 1950s. There is now a resurgent interest in honey as a topical antibacterial agent for the treatment of surface infections, such as ulcers, bed sores, and those resulting from burns, injuries and surgical wounds. The antibacterial activity of honey has been attributed to its high osmolarity, acidity and hydrogen peroxide content.
So there was a reason why I was eating honey, I felt like it was acting like an expectorant, helping me to get rid of the stuff in my throat.
However, my presentation went so so. I felt I could not moderate these people, but on the other hand, a positive thing was that I changed a direction of my presentation on the spot to accommodate some comments that came up. During lunch I strongly felt that I should not eat any real food, but that I could only eat sweets and soft food, so I ate apple pie which was pretty good and a mouse for lunch. I all of a sudden had this urge to eat honey - I hate honey, I have not had it in many years. But today I felt I had to eat 3 small containers of it during the meeting. Afterward for dinner I had 4 or 5 kg of tangerines and oranges and I finished off with one pineapple.
Btw, I just did a goodle search on therapeutic properties of honey and found this -Honey was originally used therapeutically for its antibacterial properties, but was replaced by antibiotics, such as penicillin and synthetic drugs, in the 1940s and 1950s. There is now a resurgent interest in honey as a topical antibacterial agent for the treatment of surface infections, such as ulcers, bed sores, and those resulting from burns, injuries and surgical wounds. The antibacterial activity of honey has been attributed to its high osmolarity, acidity and hydrogen peroxide content.
So there was a reason why I was eating honey, I felt like it was acting like an expectorant, helping me to get rid of the stuff in my throat.
Monday, February 25, 2008
Still sick and NEWS
I am still very sick. I thought I was getting better this morning, and I was better, then went to work - big mistake! Now I am getting sicker. My throat hurts less now, but I think I have a fever again and a runny nose. So I am keeping fingers crossed. I had to cancel business dinner today to preserve my voice for tomorrow's presentation.
On another note, I have news which I have to document immediately. Some time ago I received a message that I have to focus on the model. Well, I was leading one of the models, then last week my boss prioritize this model as my #1 priority this year. However, today, my colleague who was leading two other models told me that she cannot handle her models, so I will have to take them over, both of them! Now I am going to be handling 2 or 3 models, so now the message "focus on the model" really makes sense. I told my colleague about this, I am wondering how my abilities would change after DV's seminar.
On another note, I have news which I have to document immediately. Some time ago I received a message that I have to focus on the model. Well, I was leading one of the models, then last week my boss prioritize this model as my #1 priority this year. However, today, my colleague who was leading two other models told me that she cannot handle her models, so I will have to take them over, both of them! Now I am going to be handling 2 or 3 models, so now the message "focus on the model" really makes sense. I told my colleague about this, I am wondering how my abilities would change after DV's seminar.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Still sick
I am still so sick. My throat hurts like hell and I sound like a man. I had to cancel my trip to H's mom, unfortunately. I am even not going to eat at the sushi place where I normally eat lunch, I am going to eat at home. I will not leave my home today at all. I am eating shrimp paella today. It needs to be a warm meal.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
post # 200
This is my post #200.
I am so sick and tired of being sick. It started a little on Monday, then turned into a very nasty cold. My throat hurts so badly. I need to cough to cough the stuff out. I also tried to do my psychic CD, but had a feeling that i shouldn't. I tried to do clairvoyance, but had a strong feeling that I shouldn't, I still tried to force myself and already put the CD into the computer but then I was like, why am I forcing myself? So I stopped. I tried to put on my anti-anger CD, but feel that I shouldn't. I miss the gym, but all I can do is stay home in bed and just read my NLP book. Also very interesting. I learned from there that I am mainly visual with secondary function sensory - haha -it is no news to me. As a psychic I am also primary visual.
However, I do feel that I am getting better. Tomorrow perhaps I could visit H's mom and paint there. Let me see what happens.
However, this post is not about this. It is about me trying to zoom into two names. These are the guys I am supposed to work with. Strangely, one of them, J, is from the country N but moving to Boston for his job. I have been having thoughts about someone who also from N but moved to Boston, someone I had a crash on. However, Ea predicted that I will meet a man who will have something to do with the region where I live now, who is a business man, very smart, very good with numbers and who will be accustomed to the US culture. My impression when Ea said this was that the guy was living in the US. Incidentally, my partner, M told me about J last thursday that he is very good with numbers. When I heard this, I jumped in my chair once again. So I did not know which one of these guys, W or J is the possible guy. So I zoomed into their names. For W who is very nerdy, I zoomed into his name but did not see us doing anything romantic. I could see him touching me, but my heart did not respond to him. My heart was cold like ice.
For J when I zoomed into his name, there I saw all sorts of things. There was a very powerful erotic sexual energy. I sense him as a very short guy, maybe 168 cm -shit I hope I am wrong about this, I just saw the two of us sitting in a restaurant, engaged in a very intense conversation. It also appears that I may not work with him directly, but will work only with W. However, I will meet J in April for the meeting that my colleague is organizing. I just placed both of our names in separate bubbles and could see how the two bubbles were holding hands and dancing together. But that could also mean that we are working well on a project. ON the other hand, I can see the two bubbles, circling together holding hands, with little hearts above them. So there is potential. I could also have a feeling of intense love -when you really care and love someone very deeply, from the bottom of someone's heart - like a wife kind of feeling - that this person is feeling - for me? How fascinating. Let us see what happens next. Well, now I am not able to connect with this feeling of love again. Now, 2 seconds later, he is looking at me, and he does care about me, but I cannot get in touch with anything else, not with any more feelings.
My impression is that I am seeing my son, Alexander, but he is not showing me that J is the dad. So this is also important info. He is turning his face away from J and turning to me, and when I asked him if J is the dad, he is shaking his head no. I asked him if H is his dad, he is also shaking his head no. I asked him if there is another father and he is saying yes. So I am quite puzzled about this. Let us see what happens next. I am really really puzzled.
However I did have a feeling before this started that I may endup in Boston. I do not know.
I am so sick and tired of being sick. It started a little on Monday, then turned into a very nasty cold. My throat hurts so badly. I need to cough to cough the stuff out. I also tried to do my psychic CD, but had a feeling that i shouldn't. I tried to do clairvoyance, but had a strong feeling that I shouldn't, I still tried to force myself and already put the CD into the computer but then I was like, why am I forcing myself? So I stopped. I tried to put on my anti-anger CD, but feel that I shouldn't. I miss the gym, but all I can do is stay home in bed and just read my NLP book. Also very interesting. I learned from there that I am mainly visual with secondary function sensory - haha -it is no news to me. As a psychic I am also primary visual.
However, I do feel that I am getting better. Tomorrow perhaps I could visit H's mom and paint there. Let me see what happens.
However, this post is not about this. It is about me trying to zoom into two names. These are the guys I am supposed to work with. Strangely, one of them, J, is from the country N but moving to Boston for his job. I have been having thoughts about someone who also from N but moved to Boston, someone I had a crash on. However, Ea predicted that I will meet a man who will have something to do with the region where I live now, who is a business man, very smart, very good with numbers and who will be accustomed to the US culture. My impression when Ea said this was that the guy was living in the US. Incidentally, my partner, M told me about J last thursday that he is very good with numbers. When I heard this, I jumped in my chair once again. So I did not know which one of these guys, W or J is the possible guy. So I zoomed into their names. For W who is very nerdy, I zoomed into his name but did not see us doing anything romantic. I could see him touching me, but my heart did not respond to him. My heart was cold like ice.
For J when I zoomed into his name, there I saw all sorts of things. There was a very powerful erotic sexual energy. I sense him as a very short guy, maybe 168 cm -shit I hope I am wrong about this, I just saw the two of us sitting in a restaurant, engaged in a very intense conversation. It also appears that I may not work with him directly, but will work only with W. However, I will meet J in April for the meeting that my colleague is organizing. I just placed both of our names in separate bubbles and could see how the two bubbles were holding hands and dancing together. But that could also mean that we are working well on a project. ON the other hand, I can see the two bubbles, circling together holding hands, with little hearts above them. So there is potential. I could also have a feeling of intense love -when you really care and love someone very deeply, from the bottom of someone's heart - like a wife kind of feeling - that this person is feeling - for me? How fascinating. Let us see what happens next. Well, now I am not able to connect with this feeling of love again. Now, 2 seconds later, he is looking at me, and he does care about me, but I cannot get in touch with anything else, not with any more feelings.
My impression is that I am seeing my son, Alexander, but he is not showing me that J is the dad. So this is also important info. He is turning his face away from J and turning to me, and when I asked him if J is the dad, he is shaking his head no. I asked him if H is his dad, he is also shaking his head no. I asked him if there is another father and he is saying yes. So I am quite puzzled about this. Let us see what happens next. I am really really puzzled.
However I did have a feeling before this started that I may endup in Boston. I do not know.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
My project has been cancelled!!
Hehe. In the last 3 weeks I felt that one of my projects, "S", will be cancelled. Yesterday I learned that it was put on hold, which basically means it is cancelled. I was so surprized.
I can also see that the message "focus on the model" was right as I am now going to be working on this model with this guy whom I suspect maybe a guy that Ea. meantioned to me - the guy I am supposed to meet because of my karma. I want to test it. I looked at the name of this guy yesterday in computer, his name is J,all of a sudden I saw a heart that encompassed his name completely. So let's what this is all about. One thing I will learn from this is to be patient to test my hypotheses.
I can also see that the message "focus on the model" was right as I am now going to be working on this model with this guy whom I suspect maybe a guy that Ea. meantioned to me - the guy I am supposed to meet because of my karma. I want to test it. I looked at the name of this guy yesterday in computer, his name is J,all of a sudden I saw a heart that encompassed his name completely. So let's what this is all about. One thing I will learn from this is to be patient to test my hypotheses.
Someone else contacted me from this blog
A woman contacted me for some clairvoyace because of this blog. I think it is amazing! I gave her some information that I could see immediately after I read her email, but yesterday while driving I saw a little more, with her attending a seminar lead by DV. I am fairly confident that she will take that at some point. I think she is practically ready for it and will want to do it. I also felt that she has this drive to open up psychically and of course if there is a drive, the third eye will open.
I so look forward to giving her a full reading. It is very interesting how I get more info about one person about one aspect of their life and get info about a different aspect of life for another person. It is completely unreal.
I so look forward to giving her a full reading. It is very interesting how I get more info about one person about one aspect of their life and get info about a different aspect of life for another person. It is completely unreal.
Clairvoyance yesterday
Yesterday I gave a teleclairvoyance to my former classmate, P.
I saw many things in relation to what she wanted to know about, about her dauther. I also saw something I never saw before. P sent me her picture and the pic of her daughter. I could clearly see P's picture crying with huge tears. This is the first time I could see - really see with my eyes open a picture that was crying. So it was a very deep issue for her, I am sure.
I could see that the situation is resolved once P resolves her issues with her husband. Then things will improve with the daughter. It was amazing how the info about the daughter was in pictures but how I started hearing messages once P was asking me about herself.
She wants to send her daughter to me which I said ok to. Also she wants to practice her healing on me, but I need to offer her something in exchange for distant healing. I offered to send healing to the situation with her family. Let's see what happens. I only tried it once before with my friend M. I think it worked very very well.
I feel that I am missing some kind of coaching skills as people are coming to me for advice a lot, they are asking what should they do. They are in pain, and I really want to help them!
I saw many things in relation to what she wanted to know about, about her dauther. I also saw something I never saw before. P sent me her picture and the pic of her daughter. I could clearly see P's picture crying with huge tears. This is the first time I could see - really see with my eyes open a picture that was crying. So it was a very deep issue for her, I am sure.
I could see that the situation is resolved once P resolves her issues with her husband. Then things will improve with the daughter. It was amazing how the info about the daughter was in pictures but how I started hearing messages once P was asking me about herself.
She wants to send her daughter to me which I said ok to. Also she wants to practice her healing on me, but I need to offer her something in exchange for distant healing. I offered to send healing to the situation with her family. Let's see what happens. I only tried it once before with my friend M. I think it worked very very well.
I feel that I am missing some kind of coaching skills as people are coming to me for advice a lot, they are asking what should they do. They are in pain, and I really want to help them!
Another success!!
Last week I spoke to H about his job - btw, he got promoted to dpt manager. But i told him that I was seeing some org charts - there were 3 people under him, and 2 people under his boss. He asked me to look into what will happen at the dpt meeting with his boss and colleagues. I saw one of his colleagues, he was thin, tall and had dark hair and another one was chubbier and had lighter color hair. He was sitting so I did not know if he is taller/shorter in relation to the other guy. H was surprized and impressed that I could see his colleagues because this is how they looked.
I could see a dotted line from h's boss to H. His boss also had two boxes under him, not three. H disagreed with me about that last week. I said that this is what I see. Well, yesterday he told me that one of the guys (who is now in box #3) is going to move to another department so his boss will have two subordinates. i was very surprized. So H was even more impressed. He asked me about a job he is planning to apply, how I feel about the company. After I heard the name of the company, I had a feeling that the company is shady and unstable - I had a picture of a house made of cards that was falling down. I told him that it is probably not a good idea which corresponded with how H felt about this.
I could see a dotted line from h's boss to H. His boss also had two boxes under him, not three. H disagreed with me about that last week. I said that this is what I see. Well, yesterday he told me that one of the guys (who is now in box #3) is going to move to another department so his boss will have two subordinates. i was very surprized. So H was even more impressed. He asked me about a job he is planning to apply, how I feel about the company. After I heard the name of the company, I had a feeling that the company is shady and unstable - I had a picture of a house made of cards that was falling down. I told him that it is probably not a good idea which corresponded with how H felt about this.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
another confirmation
my friend G. called me and said that she had a job interview in a building that looked exactly what I described - a building completely surrounded by kanals. She did not get a job though but the building looked identical.
Now I need to learn more precision as I see images but it is hard to put them together and the dates. Talked to my friend M yesterday and her teacher MF uses a timeline when predicting dates.
Now I need to learn more precision as I see images but it is hard to put them together and the dates. Talked to my friend M yesterday and her teacher MF uses a timeline when predicting dates.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Sending healing to my friend M
Today I sent healing to my friend M, the one who is pg with twins.
yesterday she asked me for an emergency healing - she had some brown blood and it was the ambilical cord that was bleeding a little. The doctors said to her that if it really starts bleeding then there would be no nourishment for the babies.
I sent her a healing today. this is what I saw. I felt I needed to stop after about 13 minutes because it did not look like she needed any more - she started teasing me and showed me a big nose with her hands, she was laughing and playing.
I saw a small thing on that cord she told me about,, there was some dry blood, I gave it some pink light. I also saw angels holding this cord and healing it. The babies were ok, they were playing, I heard them laughing, they were joggling these little pink hearts and sending them to each other.
The thing is and this is what I did not tell her was that the cord was bleeding a little bit, I gave it all I could.
I got a message that she must rest and take it really easy for now.
I am a bit concerned because I am not able to see two babies when they grow up, I am only able to see her with one child - and it looks like a little girl. A very cute one. M is very very happy being a mom. I told her that.
I also today reconnected enteric cords from her to the babies and from her husband to the babies.
yesterday she asked me for an emergency healing - she had some brown blood and it was the ambilical cord that was bleeding a little. The doctors said to her that if it really starts bleeding then there would be no nourishment for the babies.
I sent her a healing today. this is what I saw. I felt I needed to stop after about 13 minutes because it did not look like she needed any more - she started teasing me and showed me a big nose with her hands, she was laughing and playing.
I saw a small thing on that cord she told me about,, there was some dry blood, I gave it some pink light. I also saw angels holding this cord and healing it. The babies were ok, they were playing, I heard them laughing, they were joggling these little pink hearts and sending them to each other.
The thing is and this is what I did not tell her was that the cord was bleeding a little bit, I gave it all I could.
I got a message that she must rest and take it really easy for now.
I am a bit concerned because I am not able to see two babies when they grow up, I am only able to see her with one child - and it looks like a little girl. A very cute one. M is very very happy being a mom. I told her that.
I also today reconnected enteric cords from her to the babies and from her husband to the babies.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
clairvoyance for my friend Ye.
Did teleclairvoyance for my friend Ye yesterday. It is amazing, she asks me about one issue but I get answers to another issue in her life, something that is much less important. It was amazing, I could even see that her husband injured his hand, without knowing about it in advance, of course.
But she gave me this advice - open your heart, be childlike, be open to the experiences with H, be open to your experiences in CA, see what happens.Keep being open. She said that things will be OK and that I will have a family.
But she gave me this advice - open your heart, be childlike, be open to the experiences with H, be open to your experiences in CA, see what happens.Keep being open. She said that things will be OK and that I will have a family.
Friday, January 25, 2008
today's session
During my morning session with my guides, this is the information that came in:
I need to ask my boss for more responsibilities. I do not need to implement the measure in the study as it currently is. I asked about H what should I do if we do not separate and got the answer: love him, give to him when I asked give what? The answer was everything you've got.
I also got a clue that I need to ask about drug development today.
Note 25.1.08 -follow up
I asked my boss yesterday about getting an extra project but she said that she could give me parts of a project. I was not sure what this drug development was and how it fit but the meeting was about business development. Still waiting for H who was supposed to come at 11 but he is not here yet.
I need to ask my boss for more responsibilities. I do not need to implement the measure in the study as it currently is. I asked about H what should I do if we do not separate and got the answer: love him, give to him when I asked give what? The answer was everything you've got.
I also got a clue that I need to ask about drug development today.
Note 25.1.08 -follow up
I asked my boss yesterday about getting an extra project but she said that she could give me parts of a project. I was not sure what this drug development was and how it fit but the meeting was about business development. Still waiting for H who was supposed to come at 11 but he is not here yet.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Clairvoyance and My promise to myself
I promised myself that I will not schedule any meetings with any clairvoyants until I return from the course in the US because I believe the course will change my future and lift my vibrations. I do not want to have to go to a clairvoyant twice, before and after the course. I also do not want to get a supervision with a clairvoyant until I return from the course as this course and the hypnotic tape I am listening to will improve my psychic abilities. With this hypnotic tape, I already feel that I am full pledged psychic (only after 2 days of the tape.
Already, I can feel that something has changed in the past week. My drive to move back to the states has subsided. I feel that for now I need to stay here.
Already, I can feel that something has changed in the past week. My drive to move back to the states has subsided. I feel that for now I need to stay here.
Monday, January 21, 2008
guidance for today
this what I need to do today, as per my guides.
Get the model, focus on the model, somehow it is very important. At the meeting today I need to be quiet and learn. Ask questions.
I need to wait with the US project.
I am protected, i do not need to worry. This job will take me up the hill, but I will be going up and down and in a straight line. I saw myself going far away. I can also see that I will fly away waiting good bye, I took it that I will say good bye to this job. I saw that something will start happening, some kind of movement, between August 2008 and March 2009. I am protected, i am in the flow.
I also heard laughter when I asked if I need to be concerned about money. I do not need to worry.
Get the model, focus on the model, somehow it is very important. At the meeting today I need to be quiet and learn. Ask questions.
I need to wait with the US project.
I am protected, i do not need to worry. This job will take me up the hill, but I will be going up and down and in a straight line. I saw myself going far away. I can also see that I will fly away waiting good bye, I took it that I will say good bye to this job. I saw that something will start happening, some kind of movement, between August 2008 and March 2009. I am protected, i am in the flow.
I also heard laughter when I asked if I need to be concerned about money. I do not need to worry.
H, his sister and my teacher S
yesterday evening H called me to say that his interview went very well. He is having another one in 2 weeks. So let's see what happens.
Then I was having this thought that somehow my meeting with S today for an individual session will not take place. I actually thought that it would be because I will have to attend a meeting at work. I also did not feel like seeing H's sister tomorrow because of everything that happened. Surprizingly there were no meetings at work that i had to attend. However, yesterday, a classmate called that my teacher is sick and the course is going to be rescheduled until February. I now have to reschedule my meeting with her since she is sick, so I am surprized that I felt that the meeting will not take place and it did not. Amazing!
Then I was having this thought that somehow my meeting with S today for an individual session will not take place. I actually thought that it would be because I will have to attend a meeting at work. I also did not feel like seeing H's sister tomorrow because of everything that happened. Surprizingly there were no meetings at work that i had to attend. However, yesterday, a classmate called that my teacher is sick and the course is going to be rescheduled until February. I now have to reschedule my meeting with her since she is sick, so I am surprized that I felt that the meeting will not take place and it did not. Amazing!
Sunday, January 20, 2008
a new friend, new signs, and cafe Schweik
Well, some time ago, I made a wish to make some new friends here as I am feeling very isolated and lonely. Some time after that a girl emailed me about my clairvoyance, she wanted to meet me first in a restaurant to talk to me. I did not know what she wanted actually, she did want clairvoyance, but before we said good bye, she asked me if I am interested in doing something this weekend, going to a museum or meeting for coffee.
My initial reaction was to say that I am not looking for friends but then I remembered that I made a request to get a friend.
So we met today, went to the park. One sign of something was that her husband is from the same place where H is now living which I took as a sign of something. Also, my former roommate and another friend are also from the same city. Why is this city somehow following me around?
She also talked about their trip to N.Cal, how they were in Carmel and how much they liked it. H also liked it very much, they drove to LA via PCH which is what H really liked, so I took it as another sign. I was very surprized she was talking about that.
There were a lot of things we talked about - how her son is growing and developing, how he is now quadrilingual. She told me that it is better to have a positive outlook on life. She also said that she did not have to struggle, things just started happening for her. She and her husband came here, not being married, together. Her in-laws also live where H is living now.
Then she asked me about a movie if I want to see something maybe all of us could go and see it. Somehow it resonated with me, I do not know why. Why is it that this city in Germany is pursuing me?
OK, on the way back I was walking to my car and passed by a cafe called Cafe Schweik. This was a sign that I took that H is saying good-bye to me. We stayed in Prague during fertility treatments next to Cafe Schweik, and here I had to pass one by now. I did not know they had one of those here.
He was staying with his sister this weekend and last weekend and did not call me at all. So we know what is going on. Also Daniel said it will be over in two weeks which is taking us to basically tomorrow. So I am waiting for him to say it is over.
My initial reaction was to say that I am not looking for friends but then I remembered that I made a request to get a friend.
So we met today, went to the park. One sign of something was that her husband is from the same place where H is now living which I took as a sign of something. Also, my former roommate and another friend are also from the same city. Why is this city somehow following me around?
She also talked about their trip to N.Cal, how they were in Carmel and how much they liked it. H also liked it very much, they drove to LA via PCH which is what H really liked, so I took it as another sign. I was very surprized she was talking about that.
There were a lot of things we talked about - how her son is growing and developing, how he is now quadrilingual. She told me that it is better to have a positive outlook on life. She also said that she did not have to struggle, things just started happening for her. She and her husband came here, not being married, together. Her in-laws also live where H is living now.
Then she asked me about a movie if I want to see something maybe all of us could go and see it. Somehow it resonated with me, I do not know why. Why is it that this city in Germany is pursuing me?
OK, on the way back I was walking to my car and passed by a cafe called Cafe Schweik. This was a sign that I took that H is saying good-bye to me. We stayed in Prague during fertility treatments next to Cafe Schweik, and here I had to pass one by now. I did not know they had one of those here.
He was staying with his sister this weekend and last weekend and did not call me at all. So we know what is going on. Also Daniel said it will be over in two weeks which is taking us to basically tomorrow. So I am waiting for him to say it is over.
talking to Mary
Today I spoke with Mary, one of my guides. I am very sad , bitter and angry about what happened between H and me. I feel like he disappeared from my life, his energy is totally missing.
I am sad that things did not work out the way I planned -marriage and baby. Looking around at my friend M who is now pregnant, my friend L who had problems and then had a baby and now problems are gone, my friend Ye. who also had problems and after having a baby the problems are now gone, I feel so bitter that it did not happen to me! H and I loved each other so much, what the fuck happened to this love? The love I felt for him was unreal? What killed this love, what made it disappear? What would happen if I dropped everything in the summer and moved with him to Germany? Would I have gotten pregnant?
I asked Mary what I should do to help me move on and deal with the situation. She said that I need to let my grief out first and nourish myself, hug myself and hold myself. things will be ok. I also heard that I will a man and a baby.
I saw that my path is going to bifurcate in q3 2008 (July-Sept) and to me it means that I will have to make a choice. I see that one the choices will lead me through a bridge and a large body of water and another one will keep me here. There is a man somewhere, I think he is across the bridge, I feel love, there are hearts coming out of my heart toward this man. My impression is that if I take the bridge it may be better for me - oh Good God, please help me make the right choice. Please help me be at peace in the NOW.
Someone I love will be across the bridge, but I do not know if he will love me. I see myself with a baby in 2009-2010. I see a man giving me a hug. I see me pregnant with a man who has very strong feelings for me, I had a sense of stability - a husband? and it appears that it will be in 2009.
I also felt that in 3 months (April-May) things will be clear for me at work and in 5 months things will be clear for me in my life (June-July).
In the meantime I need to let go of H.
I am sad that things did not work out the way I planned -marriage and baby. Looking around at my friend M who is now pregnant, my friend L who had problems and then had a baby and now problems are gone, my friend Ye. who also had problems and after having a baby the problems are now gone, I feel so bitter that it did not happen to me! H and I loved each other so much, what the fuck happened to this love? The love I felt for him was unreal? What killed this love, what made it disappear? What would happen if I dropped everything in the summer and moved with him to Germany? Would I have gotten pregnant?
I asked Mary what I should do to help me move on and deal with the situation. She said that I need to let my grief out first and nourish myself, hug myself and hold myself. things will be ok. I also heard that I will a man and a baby.
I saw that my path is going to bifurcate in q3 2008 (July-Sept) and to me it means that I will have to make a choice. I see that one the choices will lead me through a bridge and a large body of water and another one will keep me here. There is a man somewhere, I think he is across the bridge, I feel love, there are hearts coming out of my heart toward this man. My impression is that if I take the bridge it may be better for me - oh Good God, please help me make the right choice. Please help me be at peace in the NOW.
Someone I love will be across the bridge, but I do not know if he will love me. I see myself with a baby in 2009-2010. I see a man giving me a hug. I see me pregnant with a man who has very strong feelings for me, I had a sense of stability - a husband? and it appears that it will be in 2009.
I also felt that in 3 months (April-May) things will be clear for me at work and in 5 months things will be clear for me in my life (June-July).
In the meantime I need to let go of H.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
I met T today
I met T. today the one that my guide told me to be very nice to. He seems very nice and also very attractive.
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