didn't get the job

I did not get the job. somehow it made me feel very relaxed in my body.

Day 3

I am conscious of the Inner Presence as my lavish Abundance. I am conscious of the constant activity of this Mind of infinity Prosperity.  Therefore, my concsciousness is filled with the Light of truth

Sending lots of love to KE, to TKO, to KT, visualizing that they all give me a super reference.Visualizing myself getting a fantastic offer from L,  a job offer I cannot refuse. Sending lots of love to TK, sending lots of love to L, sending lots of love to myself to get detached from the outcome. visualizing myself celebrating my new job with I and E. visualizing myself making a call to my mom giving her the news. visualizing myself starting my new job on 3 September!!!

Sending lots of love to statsf., visualizing them letting me keep custody of A and A's dad accepting it. Sending lots of love to A's dad. sending lots of love to my lawyer on friday. visualizing that she gives me very good news that the custody is mine and i have nothing to worry about.

day 2

I lift up my mind and heart to be aware, to understand and to know  that the Divine Presence I am is the source and substance of all my good.

I am a master manifester manifesting my reality. focusing on abundance, financial abundance, abundance of love, abundance of jobs that are interested in me. sending love to myself, my stomach. visualizing myself withouth constipation, completely healthy.

A visualizing being contacted by L today that they want to negotiate an offer with me. Visualizing the offer being so fantastic and perfect that I accept. And so mote it be!  Sending lots of love to L, TK, and MM. Sending lots of love to the universe.

Sending love to all of my references, lots of love to them visualizing that they come back and give me a fantastic reference and come back to me very very soon. Lots of love to them. lots and lots of love. keep sending love to L and TK. Lots of love. lots of love to me, visualizing myself letting go of the outcome and being completely neutral. Visualizing myself starting my new fantastic job on 1 September. and so mote it be!

day 1

God is lavish, unfailing abundance,the rich omnipresent substance of the universe. this all providing source of inifinite prosperity is individualized as me - the reality of me.

I am abundance personified. I am the creator of my reality. i am God, the Creator. I create my happiness and well being. I create my finanicial health and wellness. Visualizing 50K landing on my bank account from all possible sources NOW.  Sending lots of love to my bank account.
Lots and lots of love.

Visualizing myself and A going on holiday to a warm sunny place where we can have tons of fun together. Visualizing getting a call monday that I got a job. And so mote it be. Sending lots of love to L, to TK, to MM, to PS, to GE. Lots and lots of love. visualizing getting a fantastic offer, much better than I expected!  and so mote it be.

day 40

I keep my mind and thoughts off this world and I place my entire focus on God within as the only Cause of my prosperity. I acknowledge the Inner presence as the only activity in my financial affairs, as the substance of all things visible. I place my faith in the Principle of Abundance in action within me.

Sending lots of love to my bank account. Sending lots of love to money. Visualizing 50K on  my account NOW. Visualizing my inflow of money being much greater than my outflow of money. And so it is!
Sending lots of love to myself. Visualizing myself being in touch with my body completely and quenching my thirst by drinking instead of eating.

Visualizing a job offer arriving, a fantastic offer, an offer that i cannot refuse. Being grateful that all these companies are standing in line to talk to me and interview me. sending love, lots of love to L. visualizing a fantastic offer coming to me. Visualizing T giving me a call next week and giving me a fantastic offer.

Sending lots of love to the new place where I am going to live. Lots and lots of love. Fantastic place, close enough to the city but yet quiet. next to the water and the forest or a park. Yes. A nice place, lots of space for us. Sending love to A's future caregiver. Visualizing that i found a fantastic caregiver for her, we are all so happy and get along so well. A is very happy and I am too and she really helps me with organizing and household chores. and so mote it be!

day 39

when i am aware of the god-self within me as my total fulfillment, i am totally fulfilled. i am now awaare of this truth. I ahve found the secret of life and I relax in the knowledge that the actvity of the divine abundance is eternally operating in my life. I simply have to be aware of the flow, the radiation  of that creative energy, which is continulously, easily and effortlessly pouring forth from my divine consciousness. i am now aware, I am now in the flow.

Sending lots of love to myself. Visualizing 50K on my bank account arriving from all possible sources. Sending love to my bank account. Sending lots of love to L. Visualizing T coming back to me with an offer that far exceeds my expectations. Visualizing getting a fantastic job offer for a great job that is right for me, with the right people, with flexibility of my working hours where I can balance work/life and be the perfect mom to A. Sending lots of love to my situation, sending love to my visa situation to resolve.

Sending lots of love to the lawyer i am meeting with Friday, visualizing the matter resolved with J having NO chance getting shared custody. visualizing that the matter with the bank is resolved with H paying his share. Sending love to H, sending love to the bank, visualizing H paying his share for the apartment.

Sending love to Ha before our meeting monday visualizing that she is gonna do the best job representing me in court. Visualizing the court going extremely well, with me being found not guilty and the creditor PE having to pay all the expenses. Sending lots of love to PE and the court. 
Visualizing myself having a super perfect weekend. Fantastic sun filled weekend! Visualizing my situation w J and taking A on holiday resolving to the best for all of us.

visualizing a job offer

a job offer is on its way to me. a job offer that i cannot refuse! fantastic job, great money, great location. so the two of us (me and A) are moving to a new fantastic place. and my divine partner about to come into my life. a's dad respects my wishes and we have agreement on things. so fantastic!

day 38

My consciousness of the spirit within me as my unlimited source is the Divine power to make all things new, to lift me up to the High Road of Abundant prosperity. This awareness, understanding and knowledge of Spirit appears as every visible form and experience that I could possibly desire.

Sending lots of love to myself and to my hair. Visualizing myself tomorrow waking up completely fresh and refreshed and full of energy, after i got enough sleep. sending lots of love to A's dad. Visualizing him taking the news that he wont spend the weekend w A very well. Sending lots of love to L. visualizing a job offer coming to me, an offer that exceeds my expectations by far. and so it is! my body is completely completely relaxed. I am completely relaxed.

sending lots of money to my bank account! lots and lots of love to my bank account. visualizing 50K on my bank account from all sorts of sources without having to repay anything back. And so mote it be.

it was a success!

well it was a success I thought. The match between me and hiring manager was very good i think. the presentation went well. they commented on my passion about the topic. But I forgot my slides at home. haha. it was like the dog ate my homework. So i had to present without the slides. with the hiring manager the dynamic was a little strange but i think he liked me. He commented on the fact that we have similar working styles. iwill know next week.

day 37

the divine consciousness that i am is forever expressing its true nature of abundance. this is its responsibility, not mine. my only responsibility is to be aware of this Truth. Therefore, I am totally confident in letting go and letting God appear as the abundant all-sufficiency in my life and affairs.

sending lots of love to myself. I will knock them dead. my mind will only be focused on the interview and on my presentation. They are loving me and i am loving them.  sending love to A's dad. sending love to the lawyer i am going to see next friday as she is going to give me good news about custody. sending love to him today when he arrives. i will knock them dead today!!! Yes. sending lots of love to H. sending her lots and lots of love.
am soooo full of energy, presenting there, filling up the room. Sending lots of love to BL, GE, TK and JT. lots and lots of love to them. Visualizing myself hitting it off with all of them. i am a great match for the job. I am the best person for the job. Visualizing myself saying exactly what i need to say to asnwer their question. I am the perfect match!

my mood is getting better and better

visualizing myself getting up in super good mood tomorrow. full of energy and very happy and at peace. my body is completely relaxed. will knock them dead tomorrow!!!
they are loving it and they are loving ME!
and so mote it be!

Day 36

My inner supply instantly and constantly takes on form and experience according to my needs and desires and as a principle of supply in action, it is impossible for to have any needs or unfulfilled desires.

I am a powerful manifestor.I keep my .mind of the physical matters and keep my mind on  love and keep my heart open. i trust that i can manifest what i desire. what i really desire.
keeping my heart on gratitude. feeling immense gratitude for having A in my life. am tremendously grateful. my heart is filled with love. i feel so much love inside. sending love to myself.

sending love to the situation with my apartment. visualizing it resolving itself. everything is going to resolve.
Sending lots of love to the job at L. Visualizing myself filled with love, grounded when i walk into the room. Visualizing me acing the interview. the interview is a total success! It is a huge success!!!! My presentation is a success!!! I am also going to sleep and get enough rest today and tomorrow so that  I am well rested before the interview. i am well rested before the interview.

feeling great later today and tomorow. feeling fantastic!! My presentation going fantastic!
visualizing multiple job offers are about to come my way. am grateful that all these companies are so interested in me that they want to hire me. thank you!

giving up the need to know what will happen tomorrow. giving up the need to know what happens tomorrow. giving up the need to know what happens tomorrow. i am fully present, fully in the now. and am grateful for it.

love is all we ever need :)

got a message from my ex lover about how hot i look with straight hair. hahaha. dream on dude!

Ok but sending love to myself. sending lots of love to myself. sending lots of love to Ye and Yu. sending prayers to keep Yu out of trouble and seek help.
Sending love to myself for wednesday. visualizing myself charismatic speaker, blowing these guys away with my presentation. letting go of the need to get L job. all i am is love. sending lots of love to BL, to myself, visualizing i do super well during my discussion. visualizing the job offer that is coming from L, a fantastic offer!
Sending lots of love to the new renter of this apartment. sending love to the place as i prepare to leave the place. sending love to the bank so that things with loan turned out acceptable and so mote it be!
am sending gratitude that so many companies are interested in me and can't wait to hire me. i am very very grateful.

day 35

money is not my supply. No person, place or condition is my supply. My awareness, understanding and knowledge of the all-providing activity of the Divine Mind within me is my supply. My consciousness of this Truth is unlimited, therefore my supply is unlimited.

Sending love to my bank account. Visualizing 50K on my account arriving from all sorts of sources, completely unexpectedly. Sending love to myself. Visualizing myself being completely in touch with my body today, feeling when I am thirsty and drinking instead of eating. Visualizing the extra fat I have melting away, but preserving the fat in just the right places. I look GOOD now, I look perfect, look wholesome and look  hot! I look very appetizing. And I look very young. My face is completely smooth, I barely have wrinkles. I look 8-10 years younger than I actually am. Visualizing  myself keep looking young and being very happy. I am super happy. I am elated because my life is going in the right direction. I am very happy about myself and I am at peace.

Sending lots of love to J and to statsf who will be deciding about the custody. Visualizing them letting me keep full custody of A. Sending lots of love to CP, TK, GE, BL, JT and PS of L. Sending lots of love to them. Sending love to the room where I am going to have my interview and my presentation. Visualizing my presentation going super well! and being exactly what they want to hear and to know.

Seeing a job offer coming my way from L, with salary exceeding my expectations, with MM doing all the negotiating. Sending lots of love to the new place where I am going to live, big enough, with a garden that is reasonably priced and not far away, quiet and is in perfect location with free/abundant parking. Sending lots of love to A future caregiver who is perfect for her, speaks fluent English and is very affordable and does things around the house too.

Seeing myself going to a nice holiday with A, to a place with sun and beach and inexpensive. A place where she can enjoy some sun. 

Visualizing myself releasing all fears about loosing A or loosing her custody or looking her half-custody. I am to retain full custody of A and so it is. Letting go of all the fears.

sending more love

sending lots of love to MM and visualizing him to come back to me liking my presentation and with constructive feedback about my presentation. visualizing myself practice it and being very animated and interesting speaker.
Visualizing my presentation being a success on Wednesday.  Visualizing the job offer coming in and them offering me a very high salary with MM negotiating it (without me being involved in negotiations).  Visualizing my interview being a complete success, me being completely comfortable in my own body. i am confident and i am who i am. this is what i have to offer - a lot. sending lots of love to BL, seeing our discussion of the test being a complete success and the results of the test being very good and what they are looking for.

sending lots of love to GE that we hit it off and the product is also super interesting to work on. Sending lots of love to TK and JT. lots and lots of love to them. visualizing me being super confident, filling up the room with my energy and being in charge of the room. I am a very charismatic speaker, the speaker who mesmerizes. my presentation comes from the heart. i just get up and start talking. very calm and confident.

sending lots of love to J, visualizing myself behaving with him in the right way. calm, setting direction, being in charge. maintaining my boundaries with him. visualizing me retaining full custody of A. sending lots of love to myself. I am loved. My body is completely at peace. I am completely completely relaxed. All is well in my world. Not just well, everything is SUPER well.
 
Visualizing the nice vacation spot we are about to go to with A. the place with the beach, the city and lots of sun, with moderate temperatures. warm ocean/sea. and so mote it be.

Visualizing myself letting go of all the people that no longer serve me. People that suck my energy. People whose contribution to my well being and development is zero. All of those people have to go. I am confident my intuition will guide me towards which people i need to let go of. already am thinking of one - TM. i am about to stop sms her.

sending lots of love to UCBP. Visualizing them inviting me for a second interview asap and me acing the interview. Visualizing myself getting multiple job offers. Yeah! it feels good. visualizing starting my new job in September.   and so mote it be.  sending lots and lots of love to my bank account and to money. visualizing 50K being deposited on my account asap. and so mote it be!

Sending lots and lots of love to my body, my stomach and my head of hair. Every little follicle on my head is nourished with blood. the hair is growing back! Yes! my whole body is relaxed, I am completely relaxed and feel surrounded by love. I am magnificent and I am magnificence.

day 34

thru my consciousness of my God self as my source , I draw into my mind and feeling nature the very substance of spirit.This substance is my supply, thus my consciousness of the presence of God within me is my supply.

Sending lots of love to myself. Visualizing myself full of energy, both mental and physical. visualizing myself taking a nap later in the day.  Visualizing myself finishing my presentation today and sending it to MM. And presentation being a success! Visualizing myself doing the test right now, filled with good energy. me having a feeling that the test is very easy and i have done very well.
sending lots of love to UCBP and am about to hear from them next week, early next week, with an invitation for another interview in Brussels  and so mote it be!

sending love for tomorrow

sending love to myself for tomorrow. visualizing it being a productive day, my heart filled with love, filling out the test and doing so very well, easily and effortlessly.
visualizing myself preparing fo rhte interview wednesday with more business examples that are easily coming to my mind. preparation is going easily and effortlessly.  And so mote it be!

day 33

I am concsious of hte Inner Presence as my lavish Abundance. I amc onscious of the constant activity of this Mind of infinite Prosperity. Therefore, my consciousness is filled with the Light of Truth.

Sending lots of love to myself today. lots of love to my stomach and intestines. Visualizing myself without any constipation, with my poop flowing out effortlessly without any straining. Visualizing myself listening to my body and listening when i am thirsty. Today i will only drink when I am thirsty. Will only drink when I am thirsty. I constantly watch when I want to drink and have a bottle available and quench my thirst and doing nothing else. I only eat when i am hungry.

Today it is going to be a great day!
I am sending love to the test i will take and visualizing myself doing fantastically well on the test. visualizing myself doing fantastically well during my discussions with BL at L. visualizing myself hitting it off with GE, my coming boss, and also acing it with my presentation to the 3 gentlemen. Sending lots of love to TK, JT. Visualizing myself confident and grounded.
Visualizing myself being confident at A's daycare. Very confident when i pick her up or deliver her.

Visualizing myself figuring out what i should do regarding the situation with custody. sending lots of love to myself and also to A's dad.
Sending lots of love to UCBP - to ES, OP, NR. Visualizing myself proceeding to the next round and a trip to Brussels with an overnight stay. And so mote it be!
Multiple job offers are on the way to me. Fantastic offers.Am so grateful that all these companies want to have me and to hire me.

It is going to be a fantastic day today!!!

day 32

I lift up my mind and heart to be aware, to understand, and to know that the Divine Presence I Am is the source and Substance of all my good.

Sending lots of love to my stomach yesterday and today. Sending love to myself. Visualizing myself to be connected with my body, feeling every time  I am thirsty. Relinquishing  my thirst EVERY time I am thirsty instead of putting food in my mouth. Pouring water in my mouth EVERY Time I am thirsty instead of putting food. Visualizing myself eating only when I am hungry.
Sending love to my beautiful body.
Visualizing myself buying the most perfect gift for H, the gift that she likes very much. Visualizing myself having lots of fun at her birthday party today. Visualizing myself looking and feeling great.

Sending lots of love to A's dad and to statsf. Visualizing them allowing me keep sole custody of A. Visualizing A and I very happy together, having tons of fun. Visualizing A's dad and me having a warmer, friendlier relationship, with mutual respect.
Sending lots and lots of love to L for Wednesday from 4-6:30. sending lots of love to TK, GE, JT, BL. Visualizing myself hitting it off with GE and the project being super interesting. Visualizing myself doing super fantastic at the interview. Visualizing myself acing the personality test and presentation. Visualizing them offering me a job before the end of AP work, with fantastic pay.
And so mote it be!

day 31

God is lavish, unfailing abundance, the rich omnipresent substance of the universe. this all providing source of infinite prosperity is individualized as me - the reality of me.

Sending love to myself yesterday, i needed it. sending love to myself yesterday, to my body and to my soul. Sending love to my body today, especially to my stomach. Sending love to A's dad, lots of love to him. Sending love to the statsf.(the authorities) he is going to contact who are going to call us for a meeting regarding custody. sending lots and lots of love to them. visualizing them deciding in my favor.

sending lots of love to L - JT, TK, GE, BL - sending them lots and lots of love. Sending lots of love during my conversation with BL - lots and lots of love. Sending lots of love to the personality test i will fill out this weekend. Sending lots of love to the test - visualizing i fill it out well, fill very confident when i do it and discuss the results extremely well whilebeing at peace and being myself.  Visualizing my presentation going super well and being the topic that they think is relevant and my presentation being a huge success with me presenting very dynamically and being very charismatic. Seeing every interview that day being a total success and that they offer me the job. visualizing the job offer coming in before the end of my Prosperity Plan.
Sending lots of love to UCBP, visualizing that i hear from them in the next couple of days regarding the next steps.

immigration is alright

called immigration about the visa. was very pleasantly surprized. if i do get a job here, it will take a month to get my visa approved. that is super fast! so there is no problem at all. i am now at peace. my whole body and whole being is absolutely at peace.

sending more love

sending more love to immigration, visualizing my visa situation resolving in the best possible way. and so mote it be.
Went to talk to lawyer about custody. A's dad s case is very weak. visualizing myself retaining full custody of A. and so it is!

day 30

i keep my mind and thoughts off this world and I place my entire focus on God within as the only cause of my prosperity. I acknowledge the inner presence as the only activity in my financial and other affairs, as the substance of all things visible. I place my faith in the Principle of Abundance in action within me.

sending lots of love to myself, lots and lots of love. sending lots of love to my hair. seeing it growing strong and lots of it growing, especially in the front. sending lots of love to A. visualizing her completely healed. sending love to immigration. lots of love. seeing them process my visa within the shortest time possible.
Sending lots of love to the authorities. Visualizing me being able to keep the sole custody of A. I am her sole custodian.  and so mote it be.

sending lots of love to L -  JT, in particular. Sending him lots of love. Sending lots of love to BL, to the test she sent me. Visualizing me completing the test well and confidantly.Visualizing me discuss the results of the test very confidently.Sending lots of love to GE, visualizing us having great professional chemistry together. Sending lots of love to TK. Visualizing my presentation being a success and exactly what they want to hear. Visualizing that my visa issues are of no hindrance. visualizing them giving me a great offer regardless of my visa status. and so mote it be!

sending lots of love to UCBP - with great news following soon.
Sending lots of love to the person who will be taking care of A, who will be helping me with her. Lots of love to her! Visualizing that I got in touch with this person.  sending lots of love to the fantastic place where i am going to live next. sending lots of love to the man who is coming into my life.

hmm visa issues again

hmmmm just got a letter from immigration that while i have a right to live here, I dont have a right to work until my visa thing is processed. That is a bummer. I need to talk to a lawyer and then explain to the company what's up. ;( i dont know how long it will take to process my application. it has been almost a year.

they just invited me back

L just invited me back for a second round!!! Will be doing a presentation, visualizing that it has the perfect content and it goes super well! Visualizing a total success of the interview. I am success! with a job offer following soon.